Are You Falling?
PLUTO THE DEATH STAR
Q: Are You Falling?
A: If you are falling, dive. ~ Joseph Campbell
I was recently gifted this quote from a new acquaintance and I couldn’t feel more resonance. There is something so powerful about accepting one’s fate and these words really hit home for me.
True story, I have been attempting to articulate my recent journey with the planetary body Pluto for the past couple of years. Right now I am underneath it, so if you don’t hear from me or if you are wondering where I am, you can know that I am dancing with this well-known and underestimated death star.
And, it isn’t that I feel like I am falling, I actually am. Falling out of one life and into another. The pacing is beyond my control, as is the swiftness of the dissolution of anything known. At this point, I would rather just put my head down and bury myself under a weighted blanket until it passes. But I can’t. I also don’t know what will catch me except I seem to have an unwavering faith that can stretch further than I would have ever imagined. Faith is perhaps one of the strongest invisible forces in the universe right there with love. And so as parts of my psyche are marching towards the death of their very existence, I can find moments of ease in knowing I will be ok on the other side of this. I just don’t know who I will be over there.
DEATH, REBIRTH, TRANSFORMATION
I realize this all may sound very odd to those who have not gone through a psychological death of sorts but I imagine a few of you have experienced something close. Pluto represents death, as well as rebirth and transformation. But death alone is a very intense process to not only contemplate but to “live” while breathing. It is something to observe as I enter into this long passageway with an understanding I will not be coming back the same. Death is a permanent process, it literally means the end. Maybe you have come close to it through the loss of a loved one, but how many of you have gone through the death of your identity and chosen to stay conscious? If you have, please reach out, and let's swap stories.
Tis’ The Season
This week indicates the time of year in which the veils between worlds are thin. It is a time of honoring our ancestors and those who have left the earthly plane. Samhain, Halloween, and the Day of the Dead occur at the end of autumn welcoming the first frosts of the inevitable winter season. Transitions are reflected in nature, leaving behind the harvest and fruits for the minimalist aesthetic brought forth by the natural shedding of life. A time when “Thriller” makes a comeback on the radio, in your social feed, and in the streets. All walks of life are spotted dressed as their favorite superhero or the meme of the moment. And it is socially acceptable to become someone else for the weekend. Within the current eclipse portal, this Hallow’s Eve feels particularly eerie to me…how is it for you?
Surrender Forward
Until this arduous and long strange trip concludes, I sense the only choice I have is to surrender and surrender I shall. As ways of being that I have held onto throughout my life are slowly curling into themselves like paper on fire, I bid them farewell. There is a time for everything and right now is the time to end and begin again. So as I fall away from all I have known before, I will dive (thank you Joseph) while praying for guidance and blessings as well as a safe landing in some new and mysterious landscape of reality.
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