Can You Remind Me?
Internal processes of the rebirth cycle
Q:can you remind me?
A: I’m having one of those strange moments in life where I am starting to come out of a thick internal process that I didn’t realize I was in. Well, maybe I should back up a minute and rephrase that. I’m coming out of a process I very much knew I was in but didn’t know how deep I had gone. Hmmm, or is it that I am just starting to recall ways of being that have been on pause for a long time due to said process? Whatever it is, can you remind me?
Do you think I am joking : )? Well, in every joke there is a half-truth. For those of you who have been reading this journal for some time, I feel like we kind of know each other. Or better said, you kind of know me…for sure. Sometimes I share very deeply in this journal, at other times I maintain a certain level of objectivity. Either way, this is somewhat one-sided as I am not able to peek into your reality in the same way. I would love to, btw, if you wish to send me a note about your moment. I always enjoy reading your reflections and responses to these love notes of mine.
LOVE NOTES & MIRRORS
And they are love notes (these journals) that pour from inside my soul, full of love, wonder, humanness, at times sorrow or joy or both, and at others radiant enthusiasm and self-inquiry. So in love note fashion, coming out of this process feels quite vulnerable and unknown, intimate if you will. And I think I would actually enjoy being reminded, by you, of something you have learned or gleaned from these journals over the years(or days, weeks, months, etc) as a way of integrating this powerful journey I am still on. I do imagine each and every one of you as a mirror in my life and I would love to learn something from your reflection.
Also, I wouldn’t say I am fully formed yet into the new chapter/phase/self/identity/being that I am emerging into and that is kind of beautiful. And another reason why now would be a good time to be reminded of something we’ve shared together that I am not aware of. Perhaps an insight, a curiosity, a new spark of inspiration, a contemplation…something along these lines.
It is such a cool possibility that we can die to our old selves while remaining in the body and come through anew. I’ve been chipping away at an old self for sure for the last few years and while I’m not out of the weeds, I am recognizing unfamiliar territory. (Can one “recognize” something that is unfamiliar? lol)
DEATH & REBIRTH CYCLE
The last 7 months have been radically challenging by squeezing me to the core. I can now appreciate the level of debilitating intensity which is helping me see that I am starting to come through it. As with any death/birth cycle, the magic number is 9 as well as the threshold just beyond it which takes us to the beginning again, 1. From where I am today 7 + 2 = 9 which means I have 2 more months before I come through the canal of this particular rodeo.
As much as I love to transmute difficulty into beauty and create art from my suffering, I have to say that this last round has really streeeeeetched me beyond what I have known my capacity to be. And I suppose that is a good thing, or at least I am still growing and growth is life. And if I am alive, it means I can keep transforming myself and the cycle continues on…
So this week, can you remind me of somewhere we’ve been together? And what I mean is something you’ve read or listened to during the life cycle of this journal or from my book The Inner Journey that struck a chord of experience. I would love to hear about it, but more than just for the sake of sharing, I look forward to learning from you, as learning from each other is one of the greatest gifts we can give each other in this wild west of a world we live in. Thank you, I appreciate you!
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