Does It Matter?
QUESTIONS WITHIN QUESTIONS
Q:DOES IT MATTER?
A: I’m staring at a paradox inside my mind. On one hand, when I pull back into an intensely objective state I sense a realization that none of “this” matters. “This” may include all the things that seem so important at the moment, the goals, crushes, jobs, apartments, accolades, dreams, desires, memories, preferences, feelings…at times these can all swirl into a vapor and dissipate into the oneness of all reality. Wow. And then simultaneously, on the other hand..all the details, actions, words, choices, causes and effects, thoughts, and experiences do matter, they really matter, as nothing is hidden under the sun.
How can both of these opposing philosophical ends of the spectrum hold truth? Is it a purely subjective/objective difference of perspective? Or is it more of an invitation to understand the various layers of being that are held within? Also, is it true that my choices matter because of the impact that I have on the people around me or because my choices determine the journey of destiny unfolding with each step? Is there a difference between the outer experience (how others perceive or receive my life) and the inner experience (how I perceive or receive my life)?
FRACTALS OF BEING
If my life is in itself a microcosm of the macrocosm then the answer for all of this may be a simple and resounding “yes”. Could it be that we are like Russian dolls, mere fractals of beingness that continue to open up revealing new levels of consciousness that have always been there and contain all the understanding of the previous way of being but now have even more treasures to offer up? Is all of this some grand adventure of coming to know ourselves as sparks of God’s fire until we commune and merge into the Sun of the galaxy of our awareness?
Can I keep asking questions? : ) Is Virtue and the embracing of it a glorious indication of progress of some sort? Is this what the Dalai Lama means when he says his religion is kindness? Those who have peered inside the portal of the vast wealth of knowledge in the rigorous spiritual library that is Tibetan Buddhism know that “kindness” is one way of putting it. And does this example of his one-word definition exemplify the same paradox I am staring at inside my previous questions? Can this religion truly be distilled into one word and also contain a universe-ity of enlightened text, debate, discipline, meditation, and philosophy, with various schools, traditions, sects, etc?
RELIGION
I am deeply curious about all religions, although, I don’t belong to one specifically. And I am especially contemplative about the non-theistic approach of Buddhism that ultimately places the responsibility of enlightenment upon oneself as opposed to a God-like creator.
religion | rɪˈlɪdʒ(ə)n |
noun [mass noun]
the belief in and worship of a superhuman power or powers, especially a God or gods:
Buddhism is such a powerful nod toward self-responsibility and though the dogma does not point to one creator, it does allow for magical superhuman powers to be initiated along the path of enlightenment through experience and the attainment of wisdom.
In my experience, both exist, God and self-responsibility. I commune with my creator and have the blessing to explore the superhuman potential that exists within the inner world, an innate gift for human beings. I recognize that I am fully responsible for my own actions and the consequences thereof. I surrender to the will of the Most High at every opportunity to lay my ego down. My faith is a relationship between me and my Being that is nurtured within the most intimate place in the heart of my heart. And it is there that I can relax into my inner knowing that it really does matter, and every ounce of awareness I receive is a gift in the celebration of life and all that is.
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