Who Are You Becoming?
PACKING FOR BECOMING
Q: who are you becoming?
A: I don’t know who you are becoming and I don’t know about me either. What I do know is that I can feel, see, witness, observe, notice, and experience myself changing in real-time! This could be a new experience for me. Now, these aren’t drastic changes, but they are incredibly profound ones. Changes that are textural, tangible, and axiomatic. In fact, I feel a new self emerging and I don’t yet know who she is…and, I am excited to meet her over time.
One very mundane activity that revealed current said changes in real-time was packing for my recent trip to Miami. In full transparency, I have traveled the world for over two decades and I have never been a light packer. Taurus moon? I have always loved the idea of having options. As I approached packing for this year’s Art Basel, which is a first for me, I turned into someone else entirely.
I observed as I methodically chose the exact size suitcase I wanted for the days I would be there. My mind's eye transformed into a personal stylist as I pulled clothes from my wardrobe that I’ve never worn together. With precision, I laid out outfits for day into evening, elegant, chic, playful, eclectic, and voila! I was done. Given that heels made it into my luggage for perhaps the first time also told me it was going to be a different kind of journey.
I packed exactly what I needed, with my supplements, toiletries, and bathing suit in tow. There was something extraordinarily satisfying about this very trivial pursuit. The clothes I packed reflect a new side of me of which I have yet to know well. I am also starting to reflect more deeply upon the current structural revolution I am living. No longer am I at the entrepreneurial whim of whatever I want when I want it, my new 9 AM -6 PM, M-F lifestyle is shaping me up in more ways than one.
BEGINNING AGAIN, NYC
As one friend shared with me after hearing the series of events and miracles that have brought me to this particular moment in time, he laughed that sounds as if I am living like many of those in their 20s who find their way in New York City. Except, having paid many dues in other realms, dimensions, and locales, I get to come in at a higher octave than the ordinary entry-level starting point.
I agreed, although I am happy to be anywhere at any level, beginning again. I have no expectations of where this current chapter is taking me, only faith and a swell of enthusiasm. Sure, I have hopes and dreams, yet I have learned by now it is best if I turn those over to God and let the Driver drive while I stay attuned and do my part to listen intently.
If it is true that we are the company we keep then I am thrilled by recent opportunities to be relating with such a depth and breadth of creative souls. I feel it is just the beginning and I intend to magnetize the wildest and most successfully rebellious creatives that exist to learn and experience awe with them.
What comes next? Listening becomes understanding becomes activation, comprehension, and embodiment. This is my path to becoming…
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