“Without music, life would be a mistake.” ~ Friedrich Nietzsche I have to agree with Friedrich on this one. Truly, I have lived too many years, mistaken, without music being a prominent aspect of my life. I remember how easeful it was as a child to freely express myself without too much thought or concern…
Read MoreThough the recent months have been quite challenging for me as I traverse the dark forest of my psyche, I am in complete awe of what can be found within the unconscious realms in the form of actual treasure. Perhaps I will come through my Pluto transits in the next few years with an aching nostalgia for these current days of tumult…
Read MoreThe night was calling me to myself. Where I’d been? Nobody knows...They had dimmed a burning light. Enlivened by a starlit night. The silence broke and my heart poured out. As the midnight thunder roared. Under the moon’s glow…
Read MoreShe had turned in the wax and crossed her wings over her chest looking like a perfectly elegant sarcophagus. Remembering her at this moment sent chills down my spine. In certain cultures, animals are seen as having a particular medicine or gift associated with them. The moth represents metamorphosis, similar to the butterfly yet with a specific affinity towards finding light within darkness…
Read MoreI received a call from an old friend this week, the first Peruvian shaman I ever worked with in my path of healing. Just hearing his voice brought back the taste of the thick-vined elixir into my mouth (iykyk). After our conversation, I began to hear some icaros, or traditional medicine songs, appear in my consciousness from the Shipibo tribe that had been a prior poignant soundtrack of my life…
Read MoreUnraveling inside out, I’m shedding my old skin now. I’m breaking out of the cocoon, underneath a full moon. I’m waking up from a dream into a new reality. My mind is rearranging, aching, unsettled, cause I’ve seen things you can’t unsee. Now the rhythm of life is changing…
Read MoreI am birthing myself into a singer...of pop songs! I know, it is a wild plot twist in the story of my life yet it is such a natural form of expression for me that has been under wraps for far too long. I grew up singing solos in every school play, musical, and eventually choir from kindergarten into high school. I had a true leaning towards jazz and the blues, the kind where I felt it in my heart so deep. Later, when I got more involved in competitive sports, I moved that stamina and energy onto the slopes and onto the field. And, I forgot myself…
Read MoreThis new moon is teaching me to tell the people I love that I love them. To hold them near and to be generous with my heart. There are many unknowns in life, many more than there are givens somehow. I am writing with a tender heart, feeling grief and empathy for dear ones who are suffering deeply. I recognize the fierce impermanence of this life, remembering the paradox of our strength and simultaneous fragility…
Read MoreHere is an example of what Self-Observation can look like: I am on retreat. I’ve just meditated, breathed, observed, and processed my dream from the night before. I stretch and make some tea. The whole day is ahead of me and I have a thought. Only five days left and what do you have to show for yourself? That thought is then proceeded by more commentary. You still have this chapter and this chapter and this chapter to write...
Right now I feel a feverish high. So much is in the air. Like sparkles in a snow globe, my life is full of things to celebrate yet you can’t quite see what is happening, momentarily. My body is a vessel for process and goodness, a process I am in. Have you ever rebirthed yourself in every area of life all at once? I thought I did this already. 5 years ago I experienced such radical upheaval that it felt like a wildfire moved through my soul, but I missed some key pieces that were unconsciously lodged inside my mind…
Read MoreI have a Dragon
inside of me,
Made from pain
and memories
Her fiery
dungeon breath,
My impending,
imminent death…
Read MoreI recently found out that my cousin lost her life to addiction. Lost her life. What is more precious than our very breath? Perhaps that which is beyond the breath, that which is greater than this physical existence...maybe, yet isn’t our life the most beautiful gift we could ever receive? And now she is gone and there are no more breaths. I am sitting here in deep reflection…
Read MoreOn the entrepreneurial journey I have learned so much and I still feel like a toddler of sorts. I may be walking but the road is a long one and I am still learning how to use many of my still-forming muscles. Everyone talks, laughs, or cries about how difficult it is, and truly, it really is…
Read MoreThis Summer Solstice was like no other. Surprisingly, basking in the Teton glow was not the highlight of this most brilliant day of the year. It was the coming together of two hearts ready to commit to a life of choosing each other that changed everything for me…
Read MoreI have a particular writing style, some of you may enjoy it, others have strong opinions around the ways in which I share. One friend, in particular, does not love how I write in the context of “we” in that it assumes I am speaking for both he, I and everyone else. I have thoughts on this…
Read MoreDamn right I’m enthusiastic! Even, or especially, in the midst of great challenges, life is an adventure. I’ve been on a three-week road trip without my car and I’m surfing the synchronistic intraweb of life. Ok, well, maybe taking a few days off this past week has something to do with it. Amazing what some sunshine and R&R can do for you if you’ve been pushing the edge since pre-pandemic. I feel a rebirth coming on, can you feel it?
Read MoreYou may have heard of the total lunar eclipse portal that we have entered into as of this morning. This is not an ordinary moon cycle indeed. Nope, this one will rock you, us, and the world in some way if we dare to notice. This is not for the faint of heart, as this will grab us from the inside and force our inner vision into seeing what we may not want to see. Are you ready for this?
Read MoreAfter glancing from side to side, I rest my eyes on the first word of this question. What exactly do I mean when I ask this question of others? It is perhaps the number one greeting amongst friends, family members, and even at times amidst strangers. And yet, where are we going with this inquiry? Is there a true desire to know the “how” of the human being before us? What is “how” about anyway? It certainly isn’t why, what, when, or who…
Read MoreWhat do I do with this relentless vision that moves through me like a force of light and wakes me up in the middle of the night consistently as a loving nudge to keep going? Keep going…
Read MoreOn this New Moon in Aries, a day of initiation, growth, and blessings upon our courageous acts - I feel inspired to share with you a glimpse into an offering from cielawynter.com called Clarity Sessions. The following is an example of how one of these sessions would begin and a transcription of what is possible…
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