How Does Music Light You Up?
NO MUSIC, NO LIFE
Q: How Does Music Light You Up?
A: “Without music, life would be a mistake.” ~ Friedrich Nietzsche
I have to agree with Friedrich on this one. Truly, I have lived too many years, mistaken, without music being a prominent aspect of my life. I remember how easeful it was as a child to freely express myself without too much thought or concern. How I could belt out Billie Holiday, Madonna, or Michael Jackson while dancing into ecstasy at 9 years of age. How music brought me into heights of feeling or held me in its loving embrace as I sobbed as a rogue and rebellious teen.
Now I am loving exploring the journey of music as a companion through the soundtrack of life. What were the songs that witnessed you through your formative years? The voices that helped to guide you in the good and tough times? What rhythm or beat was consistent in your day-to-day throughout each transition and stage? Can you see how the frequencies have shaped your reality over time? Or was it that your reality depicted the music you were drawn into?
I don’t regret the past often, I do however work with it to learn and to change myself. Yet, the years that I stopped singing are too many to count and I can only shake my head at this “mistake”. From my late teens into my early thirties, I lost my voice. I was immersed in competitive sports, I was navigating a professional path, as well as beginning my first cycles of conscious transformation of self. Music was still there, but my voice as a vehicle for music was not.
WHERE WAS MY VOICE?
My energy was focused on the mountain as a snowboarder, the field as a soccer player, and the greens as an inspired golfer. I was determined as a competitor and rallied around the notion of winning rather than self-expression. Later I found myself struggling to speak amongst the dominant male figures at my workspace and was exhausted daily. Just sitting in the conference room with 5 alpha males talking over each other was enough for me to want to disappear.
Eventually, I decided to take yoga teacher training at 22 years of age and initiated a path of deep embodied meditation. Thankfully this practice has guided me through all of the plot twists of my life, yet I went inward and barely came “out” to playfully express myself in the same ways. Capricorns can be very dedicated and sometimes a little too serious, luckily we also have a great sense of humor. If only we could laugh at ourselves a bit more…
MUSIC IS A LIGHT
Somehow, music and singing have found me, again. Perhaps it is the current terrain I am navigating internally, or the inner work I am doing to excavate the jewels from within. Whatever it is, I am beyond thankful that my voice is making some room for itself in my life, asking me to give it a proper allowance of my time and energy. As well as look to it to inspire and offer guidance to me as I walk this moment of the unknown. There is a deeper knowing that my voice alone holds the key to. I wonder what is on the other side?
Music is a light in my life! It lights me up in ways that nothing else can. And not only does it illuminate newfound parts of me, it is also transforming me from the inside out. Transformation is a state of being and metamorphosis is my homeostasis. I suppose it is time for me to surrender to this powerful gift of song and see where it wants to take me. How does music transform you?
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