With the waves crashing over my soul, the sun beating down on my flesh, I shed some tears in the ethereal presence of love. For years I have lived with a silent ring of protection around my heart, afraid to venture too far in any one direction despite my curiosities…
Read MoreI am my own woman, with enough fire to blaze through acres of life without being compared to anyone or thing. Thank you.
I love God, I won’t hide it or pretend this part of me doesn’t exist. It is the most vital part of me, my entire existence is moved from a direct relationship I have with my Father/Mother.
I am a wild, rebel warrior who does not care to fit in with this world, yet I respect all living beings from every kingdom far and wide.
Read MoreWell that is a bold question and a curious one to boot. Isn’t this the question? Who am I?
Well perhaps there is a difference between who I actually am and who I think I am. Thoughts, who is thinking? For me it really depends on the moment whereas at times I am identifying as Ciela, a woman…or perhaps as an entrepreneur, a writer etc. And another moment still, a daughter to my Lord. The first example clearly defines more of how I experience my gender followed suit by my actions and what I do. The latter, a home base from which I can orientate myself in any given moment from the complexity to the simplicity of life…a daughter.
Read MoreEverything that we see, breathe, eat, experience, run through, put on, listen to and feel is created from nothingness. Perhaps my definition of “nothing” is slightly paradoxical as it also contains everything, but that is another conversation…
Read MoreWhen Pluto arrived onto the astrological scene, it was first referred to as Planet X. There was an ominous energy that arose in the collective psyche with new awareness pointed towards the epic power radiating from this unknown, mysterious and controversial planet. An eleven-year-old girl, Venetia Burney is accredited for having named the planet after the God of the Underworld when her grandfather read to her from The Times about the Planet’s discovery in 1930.
Although invisible to the eye, the inner workings and the profundity through which we are collectively, and I dare say individually, marked by Pluto are undeniable. As with all planets, Pluto has two faces, the higher and more regal expression of itself which has been associated with the Roman Goddess of Minerva – ruling strategic warfare and wisdom as well as the deeper, darker and more infamous qualities of Hades – Lord of the Underworld.
Read MoreAt the forefront of my innermost heart. I’ve been in deep reflection of the power of humility recently, having tasted an authentic savoring of this often misunderstood virtue as of late. Traversing the inner planes and integrating what I find has always been a favorite way for me to spend my life, yet the more I continue, the more I recognize my place in all of this. More specifically, the power I have, the power I have not, and the right relationship between the two.
Read MoreThere once was a maiden who yet knew rebirth,
she danced and she danced ‘round her perceived value and worth.
In her days of youth, she would commune with the creatures and plants,
seeking connection in every living thing, riding bareback in trance.
Through the forests with sunlight kissing her skin,
between shadows of leaves she found Nature’s kin.
Her innocence was a flame that began to grow dim,
as she grew, her attention was lost, seeking outside, not within.
Read MoreStarting with a deep breath, I close my eyes and soften. This feels good. In a world that spins round, yes round, it is easy to find ourselves caught in the dual nature of illusion. Pointing fingers, judging this and that based on our own fixed and literal points of view, we may miss the full spectrum life occurring before our eyes and not all of it feels good. Is this why we turn a blind eye at times? What about the possibility of having an addiction to feeling good? Of course, we can see the extreme reach of this on the streets of the Mission District in San Francisco for example. Strained souls seeking to liberate their imprisonment with one more high. Is the truth so obvious? That in seeking to feel good rather than to feel free we may create circumstances that bind us further into our own deception? I did this for years in the name of spirituality.
Read MoreYes. And I also have the right to speak. There is a considerable amount of energy that goes towards silencing those who have lived unique experiences, witnessed compromising situations or that have something to say that could incriminate the silencer. People have been murdered for the knowledge that rests upon their tongue. Others, tortured to either speak or remain silent. Can we see that the power is equal? That silence when authority requires an answer is met with aggression and threat? That the threat of speaking when those of power wish to hush the witness can lead to death?
Read MoreI approach the keyboard, my heart racing, palpitating rather, and I can hardly see straight. Is this what yours looks like? I have never been one to shy away from the challenge to change, in fact I love it. Yet, whatever this current invitation is that is slithering under my skin before my eyes, turning my insides outside and causing me to forget my name…well, to say in the least, this is unfamiliar.
Read MoreIn a moment full of new possibilities, when the world cheers on, many people filled with jubilation in the streets, others sitting cozily at home drinking tea, why am I crying (drinking tea)?
Read MoreSettling into the warmth of radiant floor heating, cozying into a cashmere blanket, having just steeped in a hot bath full of salt and essential oils, feeling quite human again while sipping on a delicious coconut mylk matcha latte, I am considering this question in a different way than perhaps I would have just weeks ago. And yes, I recognize I am completely spoiled right now. So, I see your question and I’ll raise you two answers.
Read MoreIt is through the illuminating sun in Capricorn, glowing in full glory upon the canvas of the Cancer moon, that I am able to look back in review with the clarity and discernment of a Saturnian gaze. This year has taught me that: love does exist and even thrives despite hatred, betrayal is inevitable medicine, boundaries are a virtue, speaking up and silence are both strengths, patience is still a virtue, the choices we make are ours alone and, if we choose wisely, they are gold within our hearts. I learned that amidst chaos I can lean into my values and thrive while undergoing immense internal stresses in the face of temptation. And perhaps the greatest gift has been collaboration as an artform.
Read MoreThere comes a moment when the trees are bare, the air feels calm after the autumn winds and the cold settles, inching towards the bones. In some places of winter there is the first snowfall which always brings both excitement and a slight panic to the nervous system of the journey ahead. My yearning for a beach, anywhere, is reluctantly stunted by the reality that it may be a while before my bare skin is caressed by salt water and sand. My hunger for thick stews, root vegetables and carbohydrates also indicates my internal chemistry shifting to meet the new sub-freezing temperatures. The beauty and starkness of death as well as the impending end of the year weave in and out of my subconscious mind, bringing me into a profound reflective state. Here I review the months past as if I am saying goodbye to a chapter of life, which of course, I am.
Read MoreBesides being a question that could be answered in volumes, in the moment…a lot. The theme of recent months has woven itself through and within the epic passage of Venus in and out of Scorpio. From the depths of loves touch, the casting of shadow aspects of the darker feminine lurk forth for reflection. This new moon in Sagittarius offers the guidance of perception to assist in navigating these unruly cosmic tides. Mars conjunct Neptune squaring our moon adds a sandpaper-like rub to the already raw texture of late.
Read MoreThe full spectrum answer begins in my heart and expands through my cells, touching deep emotions, physical sensations, and thoughts around why, what is happening, the present moment, the future, and literally the science of feeling itself. Neurotransmitters emit their lightning bolts through my limbic system as I am swathed in the neural phenomena of memories, while stimulus of thought engages my nervous system tracking through my endocrine system and so it goes…
Read MoreDo I speak my mind? A very wise teacher shares that it is just as erroneous to speak when one should be silent as well as to be silent when one is to speak. This one sentence is full of profound consequences and pretty much sums up this Gemini full moon. Mercury is the ruler of Gemini and is currently expressing retrograde through our minds eye, inviting us to review our thoughts and the words that form from them.
Read MoreObjectivity is a jewel when we can source the glimmer of clarity from within the smoky haze. A mix between the external chaos of the current world stage, and the similar vastness of undiscovered territory on the internal plane, can make for a difficult journey ahead. In this moment, the wellspring of patience can seem at times unbearable. How sweet it is in the bitter ticking moments of time itself.
Read MoreBehold…relief. A scorpionic new moon invites us to seep luxuriously into depths of reflective empathy and love. This Venus retrograde has not been for the faint of heart and to many this new moon energy will feel like a warm bath full of sea salt and vetiver.
Read MoreAs we venture through the window of what has traditionally been referred to as Samhain, a Gaelic seasonal time of celebrating the transition from harvest to winter, we are invited to travel through the liminal portals beyond space and time. It is said that the veils between the world of the material and the realm of spirit are thin, allowing one to have ample access from both sides of this bridge. A time where devas and fairies of the plant kingdom would reveal themselves, a time when mere mortals could experience a taste of the supernatural, thus altering their sense of “reality” for good.
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