After much tireless curiosity around this subject and meticulously investigating my true motivations and relationship to change, I can honestly say yes. And...it truly is the hardest, most arduous, and disciplined notion I believe a human can undergo. Changing a mind is not just making a new decision, it is diving deep into the crux of the origin of being…
Read MoreBecause your body can swim? Or for nighttime dreams? The way she looks at you...Or ridiculous memes? Or for, homecooked meals...The winds of change? Your favorite films...the bizarre and the strange? Because of high thread count sheets...And sweet body oils? Coyote songs under moonlight? Humus and fertile soils?
It isn’t often that we have such explicit articulation from the cosmos focused on one of my very favorite topics, the illumination of darkness. On this full Taurus Moon, we are receiving a gilded invitation, starlit and poised, in the form of a lunar eclipse. Ready or not, here it comes! This season of Scorpio has not disappointed…
“Without music, life would be a mistake.” ~ Friedrich Nietzsche I have to agree with Friedrich on this one. Truly, I have lived too many years, mistaken, without music being a prominent aspect of my life. I remember how easeful it was as a child to freely express myself without too much thought or concern…
Read MoreThough the recent months have been quite challenging for me as I traverse the dark forest of my psyche, I am in complete awe of what can be found within the unconscious realms in the form of actual treasure. Perhaps I will come through my Pluto transits in the next few years with an aching nostalgia for these current days of tumult…
Read MoreThe night was calling me to myself. Where I’d been? Nobody knows...They had dimmed a burning light. Enlivened by a starlit night. The silence broke and my heart poured out. As the midnight thunder roared. Under the moon’s glow…
Read MoreI’ve been exploring this question viscerally. It isn’t the most pleasant of processes but definitely one of the most important for me. Also, we have transitioned into Autumn. The shift between seasons, just like the moment between yoga poses or life chapters is a very delicate stretch of time…
Read MoreI am, completely and entirely. Something is happening to me that I have never experienced in my life. It is difficult to articulate, it is truly radical in nature, and I will do my best to see if I can find the words to describe this moment under the glow of this Pisces full moon…
Read MoreShe had turned in the wax and crossed her wings over her chest looking like a perfectly elegant sarcophagus. Remembering her at this moment sent chills down my spine. In certain cultures, animals are seen as having a particular medicine or gift associated with them. The moth represents metamorphosis, similar to the butterfly yet with a specific affinity towards finding light within darkness…
Read MoreFeeling slightly nauseated as I write this. Perhaps I am living one of my most raw moments as a human being to date. I’ve been a seeker for as long as I can remember and I have been a teacher for 20 years. I am a deeply spiritual being and I am a completely imperfect human too. Not only imperfect, I have made many mistakes…
Read MoreI received a call from an old friend this week, the first Peruvian shaman I ever worked with in my path of healing. Just hearing his voice brought back the taste of the thick-vined elixir into my mouth (iykyk). After our conversation, I began to hear some icaros, or traditional medicine songs, appear in my consciousness from the Shipibo tribe that had been a prior poignant soundtrack of my life…
Read MoreUnraveling inside out, I’m shedding my old skin now. I’m breaking out of the cocoon, underneath a full moon. I’m waking up from a dream into a new reality. My mind is rearranging, aching, unsettled, cause I’ve seen things you can’t unsee. Now the rhythm of life is changing…
Read MoreI am birthing myself into a singer...of pop songs! I know, it is a wild plot twist in the story of my life yet it is such a natural form of expression for me that has been under wraps for far too long. I grew up singing solos in every school play, musical, and eventually choir from kindergarten into high school. I had a true leaning towards jazz and the blues, the kind where I felt it in my heart so deep. Later, when I got more involved in competitive sports, I moved that stamina and energy onto the slopes and onto the field. And, I forgot myself…
Read MoreThis new moon is teaching me to tell the people I love that I love them. To hold them near and to be generous with my heart. There are many unknowns in life, many more than there are givens somehow. I am writing with a tender heart, feeling grief and empathy for dear ones who are suffering deeply. I recognize the fierce impermanence of this life, remembering the paradox of our strength and simultaneous fragility…
Read MoreHere is an example of what Self-Observation can look like: I am on retreat. I’ve just meditated, breathed, observed, and processed my dream from the night before. I stretch and make some tea. The whole day is ahead of me and I have a thought. Only five days left and what do you have to show for yourself? That thought is then proceeded by more commentary. You still have this chapter and this chapter and this chapter to write...
Right now I feel a feverish high. So much is in the air. Like sparkles in a snow globe, my life is full of things to celebrate yet you can’t quite see what is happening, momentarily. My body is a vessel for process and goodness, a process I am in. Have you ever rebirthed yourself in every area of life all at once? I thought I did this already. 5 years ago I experienced such radical upheaval that it felt like a wildfire moved through my soul, but I missed some key pieces that were unconsciously lodged inside my mind…
Read MoreI have a Dragon
inside of me,
Made from pain
and memories
Her fiery
dungeon breath,
My impending,
imminent death…
Read MoreI recently found out that my cousin lost her life to addiction. Lost her life. What is more precious than our very breath? Perhaps that which is beyond the breath, that which is greater than this physical existence...maybe, yet isn’t our life the most beautiful gift we could ever receive? And now she is gone and there are no more breaths. I am sitting here in deep reflection…
Read MoreOn the entrepreneurial journey I have learned so much and I still feel like a toddler of sorts. I may be walking but the road is a long one and I am still learning how to use many of my still-forming muscles. Everyone talks, laughs, or cries about how difficult it is, and truly, it really is…
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