How Can I Help?
As someone who is oriented toward service as a life path, I am often reflecting on to what extent I can actually help people and what kind of circumstance is required for that to be a reality. Over the years I have learned 4 big lessons on this topic 1. I cannot actually help anyone unless I help myself first and 2. I can only help people who are also willing to help themselves because 3. You can’t help anyone if you are sacrificing yourself in order to help them and 4. If they don’t want to help themselves, nobody can help them at all…
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Are You Free?
Life is beautiful. It is such a gift, perhaps it’s the biggest gift of all…to be alive. And yes, it comes with a full spectrum of human experience that is both shattering and exhilarating, expansive and terrifying, possible and trying - all at the same time. How is it that I get to wake up every morning to this glorious mystery and experience something completely new and different if I so choose (to become aware of the new and different)? Am I in fact free to change my mind and life at any moment? Am I not free if I forget this?..
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What Do You Remember?
Memory is such a deep well of exploration. Each of us carries it very near within, not to mention throughout the fabric of our psyche in every ravine, crevasse, and mountain pass that we may stumble upon while traveling through the inner landscape of our beingness. Astrologically our memory is associated with the 4th house and where Cancer represents in your personal chart. And let’s be clear, memory isn’t just about recalling where you put your car keys or only used for ‘memorizing’ words for a middle school play. Memory is an ancient doorway to the past which is where most of you lives…
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What Ends Here?
Writing this by the crackling fire before the sunrise is such a luxury and I’m soaking up every moment. This week I’ve been fortunate to recharge in my homeland of Jackson, Wyoming, gain altitude by hiking in the glorious crystalized Tetons, inhale fir sap essence into my lungs from the trees, and weave along with the Snake River walking at her edge for hours…
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Who Is at War?
At one point I wrote a blog about the following statement - We cannot change the world until we accept we are the world. This is the new conversation. Today I am steeping in this phrase. What does it mean to me? Why did I once announce this to myself and what is the conversation I am longing to have and with whom?..
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What Is Beauty?
I find myself in utter astonishment. Not because of the complete 180 that has introduced itself into my life this week but because of the most exquisitely beautiful dream I just woke up from. Have you ever been surfing the tidal waves of change, basking in the glory of the unknown, and asked for a sign? Me too. Just yesterday actually. It isn’t that I am new to these death and rebirth cycles of life, yet, somehow they keep feeling more intense, more palpable, with more at risk. I imagine this crescendo of undeniability and immensity is a true blessing. The more life I live, the deeper into the layers of my psyche I go, and what I find there needs work - rugged, genuine, courageous inner work…
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If You Could Have More of Anything, What Would It Be?
God. What does this word mean to you? Every letter is a symbol that coalesces into form when put together to create a particular wor(l)d. There is a resonance, a vibration, and a powerful resounding tone that emanates from this word. Some may throw their life before it, surrendering to the intoxicating gaze of destiny and dance with wild abandon into the eternity that is God. Others may run, as far as they can from it, barely uttering these letters upon their tongue. While others may dissect it through time and space, tracing history with their intellect, “proving” the absence of such a thing as if a construct of the human mind itself…
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Where Am I Going?
What a great question. Have you asked yourself this lately? What comes up for you? For me, many different layers to the answer are resounding in thought waves with every realization and aha. From “I don’t know” to “home” to “communion” to “do the laundry” to “the direction of my discernment” to “get some food” to “into the future” to “self-realization” to “somewhere new” to…and the story goes...
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Which Way Will They Blow?
The winds of change are here. Deep in your bones, a new reality is fertilizing your inner soil yet discovered. One that is unrecognizable to the current collective mind. Can you feel these winds that are calling us into a new future? I can feel them, I can hear their howl too. Two years ago I was invited to explore astrology from 2020 - 2030 on a podcast and what I saw was both chilling and inspiring. The cosmos seems to be blasting transformation from an exalted karmic combination of profound medicinal astrology to cure the weakness of our societal blues from every angle. How about that?
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How Was Your Day?
Sometimes it feels as if there are a thousand days from when I wake up until I get to crawl back into bed, that luxurious place for hard-won rest. Plus, I haven’t actually been sleeping as much as I would like for the past 6 months as I continue to wrestle with my destiny which can stretch the capacity of experience in a day. Still, those moments of being deeply present to how my body practically merges with my soft sheets and the gravitational pull from my mattress are (insert Italian kiss to the tips of the fingers all brought together mudra) benissimo…
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Be Still and Know?
How often do you find yourself simply being still? I’m reflecting on the stillness that is calling me from what feels like a faraway land, beyond the bustle of New York City, beyond the constant flow of thoughts that rush as a river through my unconscious, beyond the momentum of life that persists even if my body is not moving at all. Psalm 46:10 reads, Be still and know that I am God. What does this mean to you, if anything?
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Can You Remind Me?
I’m having one of those strange moments in life where I am starting to come out of a thick internal process that I didn’t realize I was in. Well, maybe I should back up a minute and rephrase that. I’m coming out of a process I very much knew I was in but didn’t know how deep I had gone. Hmmm, or is it that I am just starting to recall ways of being that have been on pause for a long time due to said process? Whatever it is, can you remind me?
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How Do I Know?
Ok, so this moment feels complicated. No longer does summer equate to easy as it somehow did during my childhood. And even that feels like somewhat of a generalization as I don’t know if it was actually that easy back then either, having to get up at the crack of dawn to jump into a cold plunge of a swimming pool for swim team practice every day, even earlier than during the school year. All of this to say, we’ve officially entered summer and nothing feels easy about this moment…
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Who’s Going Retrograde and What’s With This Weather?
Upside down, Mercury squaring Neptune, boy you turn me. Inside out…and round and round. Anyone else feeling washing machine vibes? Is the current awareness of the acute complexity of challenging circumstances glaringly obvious to you too? And yet, is it also difficult to know which way is up? Same here. Although we’ve recently moved onto the shores of Cancer Season, this moment in time feels deeply mental, ripe with waves of confusion just murky enough to encourage pause from moving in any specific direction too fast…
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Are We on Common Ground?
There is nothing like waking up with vitality, feeling the inspired pull toward these keys to flush out some ruminating heart thoughts about a provocative inquiry. At least, for me, getting to share my enthusiasm, curiosities, and future memories or visions with you in this journal is quite a distinguished gem in the treasure chest of my life. And when an evening such as last night rolls through my life experience, I am all the more up and at ‘em, even after only a few hours of rest…
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When Does It End?
There is no end! Haha, in my humble opinion of course. This is not true from certain vantage points (we do die) and yet there is maha or “grand” truth so fervently embedded in that statement. Where am I going with this? Eternal life is defined perhaps by the incessant continuation of the cycles of death, rebirth, and transformation inherent within the rhythms of life itself. For example, we die to one way of being in the womb, once surviving through our umbilical cord and swimming in amniotic fluid, to then an abrupt ending as we die to being a fetus and are born into this world…
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What Is a Silent Luxury?
Moments ago I laid down on my floor and let every part of me sink into the gravitational pull toward earth. As I was scanning my body, I could clearly feel the areas of tension accumulated from holding myself upright, not to mention the impact of the stresses of daily life. Lying in the horizontal plane is not something I have done much of these past few months as I’ve been sleeping in more of a meditative posture and not by choice. It has been wild to witness the fury of my body undergoing duress as I continue to be processed in the meat grinder of life. Ok, a little dramatic but sometimes it feels like that and it is better to laugh with a twist of dark humor (thanks Pluto) than to not laugh at all…
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What Is Changing?
Astrologically, 2023 is poised as a revolutionary year with a spotlight on Pluto, Saturn, and Jupiter providing the scene for the micro and macro tectonic shifts that will carry us through into the rest of this decade. This is not about being comfortable. Although I am tempted to say something about how challenging and radical this moment is as an indicator of the sea change…it is hard to compare “these times” with all times throughout history because, let’s be honest, when has being human ever been easy? Whether dealing with predators, plagues, sanitation, natural disasters, wars, tyrants, and the most challenging of all, ourselves (our ego and the indications of said ego), there has always been an antagonist nipping at our heels…
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Where Art Thou Temperance?
When you are walking through Hell…keep going! Why does this thought make me laugh so hard? Because it is so obvious? Or maybe because when you know the temperature of the inner hell realms so intimately that just thinking of them sears your flesh, the only options are to laugh or cry. I don’t know but maybe there is something about the dichotomy of opposing forces that does bring us to the middle path. Pain and suffering on one end versus joy and laughter on the other. Perhaps somewhere in between is where the homeostasis of being resides, and from there, it is only human to taste the flavors of said emotional spectrum…
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Is There a Spirit of Vulnerability?
You know how people say...”In the spirit of _fill in the blank_?” In the spirit of Christmas, teamwork, frothy matcha with housemade almond milk, etc. Well, tonight I am reflecting on my moment and this rambunctious lunar eclipse befalling us and in the spirit of vulnerability, I would like to share some of mine with you. Deep sigh. Ok…it has been a very challenging couple of months for me. I feel that I’ve been consumed by a literal fire within my body that has truly challenged me on every level. Health is wealth, my Godfather always says, and it is true! And lately, I’ve been feeling a bit impoverished in this area while going through a compost phase of sorts…
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