Comfort is a curious thing. I’ve noticed just how eager I am to feel it, especially in times of distress or when I feel deeply uncomfortable due to whatever the circumstance, illness, challenge, etc happens to be. There is a register, almost an internal yearning for homeostasis, that seeks comfort as one would a soft blanket to melt into. However, when is it that true change of mind, thought, action, attitude, and beliefs, occur? Certainly not in a state of comfort…
Read MoreOr maybe, “To read the headlines or not to read the headlines, that is the question.” I recall a conference years ago where Alberto Villoldo, amongst others, was speaking on prophecy, shamanism, climate change, etc. He spoke about the changing times and the impulse for us as humans to seek refuge from natural disasters, wars, and intolerable temperatures, offering the example of someone seeking to get away from land swept by fire only to be devastated by floods somewhere else. His eventual point, there are no “safe places”…
Read MoreI've been reflecting under this Libra full moon opposing Chiron (the wounded healer), as I've been enduring a very challenging moment of being human. I'm recognizing the fragility as well as the resilience of this incredible body and its capacity and willingness to be honest above and beyond my own self-deception. I’m learning that whatever it is that I’ve been avoiding, especially unconsciously, has created deep ravines and patterns that can be traced throughout my family lines in physical form. Typically we call them hereditary manifestations. Now that it’s my turn, I get to explore the true significance of what that means. Not just for me and my life and what it is that I have to change, but I’m learning about the consequences of individual and familial karma and how that plays out on the stage of the body…
Read MoreOr not? Honestly, I am feeling very resistant, almost tantrum-esque in wanting to pause the AI takeover that is actually already happening. I guess I was that person who didn’t want a cell phone either and then kept a flip phone for as long as I possibly could. I still have never been on TikTok and loathe social media even though I am a part of its mayhem as a “user”…
Read MoreImagine a glass house dressed in exquisite interiors, humid from the indoor pool that wafts memories with the likeness of the local rec center from our childhood. Floor-to-ceiling windows inspire perspective and allow the morning light to pour in without warning, illuminating every corner. The temperature fluctuates, noticeably sensitive to and in sync with the surrounding environment. Vulnerability presents itself and yet there is a sense of strength and faith that the house will hold us powerfully through the storms, inside and out. What metaphor did we just live through up there in that sanctuary, three hours from the hustle and bustle of New York City?
Read MoreHi! Do you ever wonder if anyone is out there thinking or feeling the same things you are? I do as I get squeezed through the emotional plunges of an empathic flight through this moment of humanity. It is a wild time, that is for sure. Between the fluidity of genders blending into new types of identified beings beyond the human species, AI feeling sad, Ohio as the next Chernobyl, and imminent war in the air, I have all the feels. When I say imminent, it could be a couple of years off but I can smell it. And when my future senses are dialed in, I start living today in preparation for what is coming down the pipeline of life. The next step? Stay present…
Read MoreA: Writing this week’s journal I was playing with the question, “Must I Accept This?” This question arose in response to simply being with what is so. When a loved one passes too soon, or thousands of lives are consumed by the earth and her tremors as has happened in Turkey. Or that I found myself in bed with the flu, so minor of course, and yet I still had to surrender to the fever that took me into its flame. Instead of the acceptance occurring as a forcing function, I rather look to my stoic and philosophical brothers such as Marcus Aurelius, and embrace the moment with all that I am…
Read MoreCaroline Kane…A woman of love, integrity, laughter, and compassion. Her energy, so full of light. As she passed in these recent days, I remind myself to focus on the new direction of her light, omni in presence and unlimited in scope. And inside my heart, her light radiates as a brilliant fire of pure gold…
Read MoreThis question has arrived for me this week. Even with a boundless forward momentum running through me like lightning, I am observing the various pathways inside my psyche, and they run at very different speeds. In one flow of being, there is such joy and exuberance for what is possible. Though “everything is possible” is my favorite mantra, I am starting to have wild meditations comprehending the meaning of this more and more. It is almost disturbing to my senses to go into the “everything” part and yet, here we are in this very particular world of creation, destruction, and all that exists between…
Read MoreBesides this moon? Everything. I wonder if you’ve had moments when you take a beat and look around your immediate surroundings, then go over to the mirror to look at yourself, afterward sit down and close your eyes and realize that everything you see is new. I’m having that kind of experience right now as I kick back and reflect on the recent changes in my life…
Read MoreThree days ago: I was in the shower this morning and started to think of all the people I have met since coming to New York City. I felt a rumble in my deep inner realm and then observed as a rush of sweetness began to stream out of the corners of my eyes. My heart pulsed with light as an immense source of pure gratitude began to express a weeping that took me to my knees. Wow. I am still in awe as I type this, cozy in my robe, feeling the aftershocks of such a beautiful human and heartfelt experience. All I can say right now is thank you…
Read MoreI love to be. To be human and all that comes with it, is an extraordinary gift. To be alive. To be here now. To be on Earth. To be together. To be alone. To be real. To become. This year has been a very strong one for so many of us and yet, still…there is being in the midst. The chance to breathe, to dance, to sing, to embrace, to witness, to experience. Please notice the exquisiteness that is encompassed in your very life. It is magnificent that you are here with an invitation to be…
Read MoreDo you know that the entire zodiac lives inside of you? That every facet of every sign can be found somewhere inside the universe that is your personal psyche? You are a Capricorn and you are also a Pisces, a Scorpio, a Leo, etc. Regardless of where your Sun shines, you also have many other planets in your birth chart that indicate further characteristics of your personality. Even without a planet or star residing in an area of your birth chart, that part of you exists and reigns over what is called a “house”. The houses from the 1st to the 12th are a map of your entire existence. Perhaps worth taking a look one of these days…
Read MoreIt takes a certain way of being to be a dreamer. I am not talking about the typical daytime or night-time variety. As you can see, being a dreamer has many nuances as well as different places to exist within our own minds and in the minds of others. Dreamers could be seen as ethereal, flaky, new-age, visionary, tribal, mystical, aloof, mysterious, etc. There are so many ways in which society perceives the archetype of the dreamer. I wonder if all of us are dreamers in there somewhere, and maybe it is just a matter of how much we nurture or allow this infinite well of possibility to flourish…
Read MoreOn this rambunctious Gemini full moon (Gemini is an air sign notorious for its trickster energetics), it would be wise to gain some objectivity. At the same time, Mars retrograde aggravates even the most peaceful and serene of us. There is a gnawing quality to this moon, a sandpaper-like roughness that will not go away. What is there to be exposed will eventually come to the surface like acne. It isn’t pretty but the clearing of the old will be done, if not with a twist of violence…
Read MoreOne week has passed after the recent eclipse season came to a heightened conclusion and I am still feeling the aftershocks. I love them though, as I can definitely say my life has taken some dramatic twists in recent days. In fact, just weeks ago I was scouring the basement of my own despair and wondering “how” this would all work out. Taking a running leap into the unknown at full speed and arriving in New York City without a plan was starting to look slightly foolish. Could I really do this? Yes, my heart was still clear and my faith, unwavering. But how?? Then the answers started to arrive one by one…
Read MoreWhat comes to mind when you envision your resources? Do you immediately think about your bank account? Or do you look out your window and take in the view? Some of you may begin to feel your body, your strength, energy, or tiredness. Do people come to mind? Relationships you have built over time? Or perhaps you take a tour through time and retrace the steps you’ve walked up to this moment. As someone who loves words with a fervor, there is something about re-sourcing that really inspires me. The dictionary’s researched origin of this beauty you might ask? Dating back to the “early 17th century: from obsolete French ressourse, feminine past participle (used as a noun) of Old French dialect resourdre ‘rise again, recover’ (based on Latin surgere ‘to rise’)…”
Read MoreIf you are falling, dive. ~ Joseph Campbell
I was recently gifted this quote from a new acquaintance and I couldn’t feel more resonance. There is something so powerful about accepting one’s fate and these words really hit home for me. True story, I have been attempting to articulate my recent journey with the planetary body Pluto for the past couple of years. Right now I am underneath it, so if you don’t hear from me or if you are wondering where I am, you can know that I am dancing with this well-known and underestimated death star…
Read MoreIf the circumstances of life allow you to stay within a cocoon of your own making, this is a great time to do so. Slip into an imagined gel-like substance that pervades every inch of your external reality, only to suspend your internal reality for the depths of review and inner work. For me, no amount of squirming will slough off the “unwanted” realizations, the parts of me that are resisting being seen under the microscope of truth. Instead, I think I will bask in this discomfort and allow for a surrender like no other…
Read MorePerspective is King. I’ve heard this title given to cash, yet I believe that perspective takes the crown. We do live in a materialistic world where many seek to fill the inner voids of despair and loneliness with money and what money can buy. However, imagine if you were in that insatiable seeking mode of needing more and more and then suddenly had a perspective shift. One that reminded you of the actual necessities of life that reconfigured your priorities instantaneously…
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