When Does It End?
There is no end! Haha, in my humble opinion of course. This is not true from certain vantage points (we do die) and yet there is maha or “grand” truth so fervently embedded in that statement. Where am I going with this? Eternal life is defined perhaps by the incessant continuation of the cycles of death, rebirth, and transformation inherent within the rhythms of life itself. For example, we die to one way of being in the womb, once surviving through our umbilical cord and swimming in amniotic fluid, to then an abrupt ending as we die to being a fetus and are born into this world…
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What Is Changing?
Astrologically, 2023 is poised as a revolutionary year with a spotlight on Pluto, Saturn, and Jupiter providing the scene for the micro and macro tectonic shifts that will carry us through into the rest of this decade. This is not about being comfortable. Although I am tempted to say something about how challenging and radical this moment is as an indicator of the sea change…it is hard to compare “these times” with all times throughout history because, let’s be honest, when has being human ever been easy? Whether dealing with predators, plagues, sanitation, natural disasters, wars, tyrants, and the most challenging of all, ourselves (our ego and the indications of said ego), there has always been an antagonist nipping at our heels…
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Where Art Thou Temperance?
When you are walking through Hell…keep going! Why does this thought make me laugh so hard? Because it is so obvious? Or maybe because when you know the temperature of the inner hell realms so intimately that just thinking of them sears your flesh, the only options are to laugh or cry. I don’t know but maybe there is something about the dichotomy of opposing forces that does bring us to the middle path. Pain and suffering on one end versus joy and laughter on the other. Perhaps somewhere in between is where the homeostasis of being resides, and from there, it is only human to taste the flavors of said emotional spectrum…
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Are You Uncomfortable Enough?
Comfort is a curious thing. I’ve noticed just how eager I am to feel it, especially in times of distress or when I feel deeply uncomfortable due to whatever the circumstance, illness, challenge, etc happens to be. There is a register, almost an internal yearning for homeostasis, that seeks comfort as one would a soft blanket to melt into. However, when is it that true change of mind, thought, action, attitude, and beliefs, occur? Certainly not in a state of comfort…
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How Does Your Lava Flow?
As willing as one is to see, this new moon in Aries (a truly rare hybrid eclipse on all levels) will pierce the veils to the inner realms of knowing thy self. The question could be, how willing are you? In my bones, in the cells of the marrow of my bones, I am receiving a very deep invitation to change. And not just my mind about something in particular, or a habit, but to see myself as I have never before and in seeing what I cannot unsee, I am now tasked with a new responsibility to do something about it…
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Where Is Safe?
Or maybe, “To read the headlines or not to read the headlines, that is the question.” I recall a conference years ago where Alberto Villoldo, amongst others, was speaking on prophecy, shamanism, climate change, etc. He spoke about the changing times and the impulse for us as humans to seek refuge from natural disasters, wars, and intolerable temperatures, offering the example of someone seeking to get away from land swept by fire only to be devastated by floods somewhere else. His eventual point, there are no “safe places”…
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Am I Healing?
I've been reflecting under this Libra full moon opposing Chiron (the wounded healer), as I've been enduring a very challenging moment of being human. I'm recognizing the fragility as well as the resilience of this incredible body and its capacity and willingness to be honest above and beyond my own self-deception. I’m learning that whatever it is that I’ve been avoiding, especially unconsciously, has created deep ravines and patterns that can be traced throughout my family lines in physical form. Typically we call them hereditary manifestations. Now that it’s my turn, I get to explore the true significance of what that means. Not just for me and my life and what it is that I have to change, but I’m learning about the consequences of individual and familial karma and how that plays out on the stage of the body…
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Does It Matter?
I’m staring at a paradox inside my mind. On one hand, when I pull back into an intensely objective state I sense a realization that none of “this” matters. “This” may include all the things that seem so important at the moment, the goals, crushes, jobs, apartments, accolades, dreams, desires, memories, preferences, feelings…at times these can all swirl into a vapor and dissipate into the oneness of all reality. Wow. And then simultaneously, on the other hand..all the details, actions, words, choices, causes and effects, thoughts, and experiences do matter, they really matter, as nothing is hidden under the sun…
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And What of Amor Fati?
A: Writing this week’s journal I was playing with the question, “Must I Accept This?” This question arose in response to simply being with what is so. When a loved one passes too soon, or thousands of lives are consumed by the earth and her tremors as has happened in Turkey. Or that I found myself in bed with the flu, so minor of course, and yet I still had to surrender to the fever that took me into its flame. Instead of the acceptance occurring as a forcing function, I rather look to my stoic and philosophical brothers such as Marcus Aurelius, and embrace the moment with all that I am…
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What Is Your Perspective?
Perspective is King. I’ve heard this title given to cash, yet I believe that perspective takes the crown. We do live in a materialistic world where many seek to fill the inner voids of despair and loneliness with money and what money can buy. However, imagine if you were in that insatiable seeking mode of needing more and more and then suddenly had a perspective shift. One that reminded you of the actual necessities of life that reconfigured your priorities instantaneously…
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What Is Possible?
Somehow deep in my bones, I have unlimited access to eternal optimism. Maybe this is my true superpower or is this because I am an Enneagram 7, the Enthusiast? Or perhaps this is due to my unwavering faith? The faith that has come alive in me from direct experience of living the impossible into reality. What matters is that I remember everything is possible, even in the face of great challenges and obstacles, and to help my friends remember this too…
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What Is It Like to Wake Up in the Morning?
Maybe it is because I am waking up in one place now for the foreseeable future after a year of travel and spontaneous adventures. Perhaps it is because I adore my bed so much and the way my skin feels perfectly supported by my super soft sheets. Or maybe I’ve been thinking about morning routines and how they shape our days ahead. I think all three to be honest, and I am deeply curious as to how your morning looks on you…
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Empathy?
empathy | ˈɛmpəθi | noun [mass noun] the ability to understand and share the feelings of another. Do you know anyone who is not in some sort of transition in their life? Me neither. It appears that each of us is confronted with some major life shift in some way or another and if we are not, our nearest and dearest is which also affects us. And tis’ the season for change as we cross the equinox threshold from summer into fall, which was immediately noted by the wind and drop in temperatures here in New York as if on cue. Scarves out, warm beverages in hand, leaves everywhere and boots replacing the wedge*…
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How Deep Does It Go?
I pull myself up from the internal mud of my mind where I’ve been wrestling with myself for days. It was bound to happen. I could feel the gravitational slippage toward an unruly arena of self that has needed some attention. How long did I actually think I would be able to skip through life carrying this deadened weight around in my psyche as if it didn’t exist? Too long I suppose. So here I am, back to some intense heavy lifting that has me pining for the lighter days of life…
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What Do You Think?
For me, it isn’t so much about what I think, it’s about what I do with those thoughts. Do I believe them? Follow their every whim across a spectrum of belittlement to grandiosity? Through my personal excavation of thought, many different thinkers are vying to shout into the microphone of my inner ear. Haven’t I learned already that having free will is a crucial component to liberating myself from these internal grade school theatrics? Maybe not if I haven’t been humbled enough to offer my free will as a gift to the only one who deserves it…
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What Are the Lyrics to the Songs of MYTHOLOGY? Track 3
Remember when you drank the cup of forgetfulness? The memories they went disrupt, now I fight for them. Through life I have always sought the answers to why I’m here. What’s my purpose beyond my dreams and why should I even care? It’s the lightness that I seek, not the darkness that comes from me. Now I’m gaining the strength with every step. For what? That I cannot see…
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What Are the Lyrics to the Songs of MYTHOLOGY? Track 1
And I knew it was you, before we met. I was driving through the night towards an ancient duet. You could feel it too. You said you knew, while meditating, two atoms colliding. We came together, a vision was born. Because of the distance we were then torn. The karma crept in, it soon felt so hard. Yet we knew there was love deep in our hearts…
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What Is Up?
Wow! After months and months of feeling the gravitational pull into my personal dark night depths, I am truly excited to be looking up again. I don’t want to put too much into this moment, if there is anything I have learned of late, it is to not have strong attachments in any one direction or to assume the best or worst. So here I am, joyful beyond, content, and…curious…
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Where to Now?
Exactly. Good question. I found myself in tears many times over the past 24 hours. Tears of joy, tears of hope, tears of exhaustion…tears of letting go. I am simply amazed that in my current shedding process, there are more and more layers to release. I can’t even fathom who I am on the other side of this. It is both exciting and radical to contemplate…
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What Are Your Favorite Words to Share?
Thank you. Thank you for your love. Thank you for caring. Thank you for knowing me. Thank you for your witness. Thank you for your patience. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for giving birth to me. Thank you for being here. Thank you for holding my hand. Thank you for letting me jump. Thank you for nourishing my heart. Thank you for your generous life. Thank you for teaching me. Thank you for being…
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