How Do You Weather a Storm?
If the circumstances of life allow you to stay within a cocoon of your own making, this is a great time to do so. Slip into an imagined gel-like substance that pervades every inch of your external reality, only to suspend your internal reality for the depths of review and inner work. For me, no amount of squirming will slough off the “unwanted” realizations, the parts of me that are resisting being seen under the microscope of truth. Instead, I think I will bask in this discomfort and allow for a surrender like no other…
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What Is Your Perspective?
Perspective is King. I’ve heard this title given to cash, yet I believe that perspective takes the crown. We do live in a materialistic world where many seek to fill the inner voids of despair and loneliness with money and what money can buy. However, imagine if you were in that insatiable seeking mode of needing more and more and then suddenly had a perspective shift. One that reminded you of the actual necessities of life that reconfigured your priorities instantaneously…
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What Is Possible?
Somehow deep in my bones, I have unlimited access to eternal optimism. Maybe this is my true superpower or is this because I am an Enneagram 7, the Enthusiast? Or perhaps this is due to my unwavering faith? The faith that has come alive in me from direct experience of living the impossible into reality. What matters is that I remember everything is possible, even in the face of great challenges and obstacles, and to help my friends remember this too…
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What Is It Like to Wake Up in the Morning?
Maybe it is because I am waking up in one place now for the foreseeable future after a year of travel and spontaneous adventures. Perhaps it is because I adore my bed so much and the way my skin feels perfectly supported by my super soft sheets. Or maybe I’ve been thinking about morning routines and how they shape our days ahead. I think all three to be honest, and I am deeply curious as to how your morning looks on you…
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Empathy?
empathy | ˈɛmpəθi | noun [mass noun] the ability to understand and share the feelings of another. Do you know anyone who is not in some sort of transition in their life? Me neither. It appears that each of us is confronted with some major life shift in some way or another and if we are not, our nearest and dearest is which also affects us. And tis’ the season for change as we cross the equinox threshold from summer into fall, which was immediately noted by the wind and drop in temperatures here in New York as if on cue. Scarves out, warm beverages in hand, leaves everywhere and boots replacing the wedge*…
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What Messages Bring These Dreams?
I’m laying absolutely still in the morning watching the sun rise in reflection upon my bedroom wall. And yet, it feels like waves are surging with great force within my psyche continuously. There is no imagined peace in the midst of such intense change. The only “real” peace I can muster is coming from my deep well of faith and even there I am having to cultivate it from the fertile ground of near depletion…
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How Old Are You?
I’ve been sharing lately that I feel I am somewhere between 90 years old and 9 months of gestation. My body aches from the wrath of 2 weeks of schlepping boxes out of a home into a storage unit over to UPS and then up four flights of stairs. Somehow it isn’t over as I continue to decipher my future life and wade through belongings that have a semblance of meaning in all of this, I am just not sure what…
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What Moves You?
I’m at the airport and boarding in 15 minutes on a one-way flight to New York City. The last week has been a whirlwind of change, literally dismantling a life I had created in Jackson, Wyoming to head to NY without a plan. Many of you have asked what inspired such a move. My answer: I am listening. I don’t know what is on the other side of this moment, who I will meet, or what I will “do”. I am clear that I am an artist and that I don’t want to starve, other than that, I am diving deep into the mystery unfolding from within and without…
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Home Is Where?
The heart is. Is that where my home is? Wherever my heart pulls, calls, nudges, or dares me to go? Right now I am surrounded by life in the uprooted form. My belongings are strewn about into piles of purge, sell, pack, and awaiting the inevitable…change. Have you ever heard that our home represents our mind and body? And that is why it can be helpful to clean the house when needing perspective. If what I see right now is my mind/body, I can only describe it as the elegance of upheaval. My color palette of the last 6 years is swathing my view, yet the serenity of what has been is no longer. There is no going back, I am (mind/body in the form of material possessions) soon being distributed amongst the valley I have always called home in some form or another…
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What Is a Karmic Echo?
We are cyclical in nature. Whether we feel it as we traverse life through seasons, or days and nights amidst the sun and the moon, or observe it within our very own bodies, hormones, emotions, and age. There are life cycles and there are death cycles, and there are cycles of karma that reverberate throughout time. Have you ever noticed how the anniversary of a birth, death, or perhaps a trauma holds a particular energy? Have you wondered why this is so?
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Up at 2 am?
Me too. This moon is so bold and bright that I’ve been sleepless for days. It isn’t just light either, it is the fire of transformation. There is no other way to spin this astrology but to recognize the intensity for what it is. Fire is both life-affirming and death-inducing. The paradox of this element and the aspects of this full moon are blazing within the individual psyche at a supercharged pace. Can you feel it?
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Certainty?
In moments of significant doubt, I attune to what feels certain. I am alive, I am breathing, I am here on earth. Life moves on, heartbeats keep beating, and somewhere in the wilderness of it all, there is a presence within me that is eternal. I lean in. This deeply intimate love caresses my soul in the most difficult of times and ruffles my skin in shivers when I hear the truth. There is a knowing, a powerful intimacy that resounds from within that I can fall into when all else appears to be lost...
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What Is the Strongest Dream You’ve Ever Had?
In the lucid realms that exist between a deep sleep state and an alert mind, there exists a treasure trove of communication with the unknown. This is the doorway into the magical, the real, and the truth serums that can alter your reality by seeing what you can no longer unsee. For those who dare to venture into the dreamland with a willingness to learn from the higher consciousness, rather than dismiss information received as solely a nightmare or otherwise, there are jewels of wisdom awaiting you…
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Ready for Deep?
By now, fearless reader, we know a few things about each other. You know about me based on what I share in these weekly journal entries and I know that you are willing to explore beyond what is commonly discussed in everyday conversation as you keep coming back for more. I appreciate that you do btw, and hope that sharing my inner investigations is in some way beneficial for you too. Truly, I feel this is why we are here; to help ourselves so we can help each other…
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What Are You Willing To Strip Away?
These stars are not messing around. Today we have a full moon in Capricorn, otherwise known as the Guru Purnima to some. Guru, in its pure meaning, is a sanskrit term that signifies the one who dispels darkness and engenders light. There is also a “heavy” connotation to the term in that the teacher sits with much earned wisdom and thus grounds truth in the form of teachings. On this day Buddhists celebrate the first sermon offered by Gautama Buddha at Sarnath, India. And with the current astrological aspects circling this week, I am sure we will each experience the weighted importance of this moon in some form or another…
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What Day Is It?
Every day is an opportunity to breathe again. To receive the blessings of this miraculous life is to be present to the extraordinary that exists moment to moment. Some days are easier than others to feel the expansive reach of that which is greater calling our hearts into greatness. What day is it? It is your birthday in the sense of a perfect day to celebrate your precious and purposeful existence…
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Are Your Feelings My Feelings Too?
Today is a New Moon in Cancer. While the moon is nestled at home in this sign, there is a heightened emotional frequency that cannot be avoided. Right now is about feelings. You have them, I have them and at times, as different as we are, we may be surfing similar feelings. In historic moments such as this one in the US, we can easily feel strongly about the issues at hand and their impact. It is also an excellent time to observe ourselves and our relationship to these emotions…
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What is Reasonable?
Recently when discussing politics with a dear soul, I was inspired by a new vision of possibility for the future of this country. Current day: Walking amidst the minefield of the glitched-out matrix of blame and celebrated ego-identification, it has been hard for me to see where we can possibly go as a nation, much less, as humanity. But I am not giving up and truly there is nowhere to go even if someone were to want to. The samsaric wheel continues to spin, evolving and devolving as we go…
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Are You Optimistic?
Yes, very! While it seems the headlines continue to bring in the intensity of the times, I can’t help but feel optimism from within my own skin. I can see there is a way forward through the density of the egotism and violence that consumes much of our society and, for me, it begins with self-responsibility. If I can show up fully with a clear mind and without blame, then I can change my world. And this is exactly what is needed right now, a new world…
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How Deep Does It Go?
I pull myself up from the internal mud of my mind where I’ve been wrestling with myself for days. It was bound to happen. I could feel the gravitational slippage toward an unruly arena of self that has needed some attention. How long did I actually think I would be able to skip through life carrying this deadened weight around in my psyche as if it didn’t exist? Too long I suppose. So here I am, back to some intense heavy lifting that has me pining for the lighter days of life…
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