Me too. The past week has felt molasses-like in nature, luring me into witnessing unconscious territory brought to the surface by the recent eclipse season. It hasn’t been pretty, and definitely not easy. Tired isn’t even the word for it, I have felt exhaustion run through me. Resistance is a decent word for it although it isn’t only that. It feels to me that there is a deeper invitation to actually change my behavior and way of being in the world. Am I up for it? I would like to say yes…knowing it will require some heavy lifting…
Read MoreFor me, it isn’t so much about what I think, it’s about what I do with those thoughts. Do I believe them? Follow their every whim across a spectrum of belittlement to grandiosity? Through my personal excavation of thought, many different thinkers are vying to shout into the microphone of my inner ear. Haven’t I learned already that having free will is a crucial component to liberating myself from these internal grade school theatrics? Maybe not if I haven’t been humbled enough to offer my free will as a gift to the only one who deserves it…
Read MoreMama,
Thank you for who you are. For your grace and tenacity, your smile and your light. Your insatiable study of life and the power within it. For your courage to give birth to your daughters, offering yourself to give us possibility…the possibility to become our true selves. You’ve seen everything and your psychic knowing has always revealed deeper truths shared in the contemplative conversations we’ve explored in these years. I thank you for seeing me, for witnessing the highs and the lows, and for getting in the trenches too. It has not been boring😊…
Read MoreNervous system, relaxed. Excellent nights of sleep, check. A profound sense of belonging to a “place”, yes. Inspired? that too. Biofeedback feels good on all levels. Sense of the unpredictable?...yes. I wonder what will be?
Read MoreAs a young maiden, so innocent and pure, I dance through the fields, while the gods feel allure. While the gods feel…Musing with all the creatures and plants, I fall for narcissus, the darkness so vast, so vast. Riding bareback through the forests, sunlight kisses my skin. Between shadows of the leaves, Hades sets out to win. And my light is a flame that begins to grow dim…
Read MoreRemember when you drank the cup of forgetfulness? The memories they went disrupt, now I fight for them. Through life I have always sought the answers to why I’m here. What’s my purpose beyond my dreams and why should I even care? It’s the lightness that I seek, not the darkness that comes from me. Now I’m gaining the strength with every step. For what? That I cannot see…
Read MoreFrom the silken midnight waters, to the fire within the darkness. And a poisonous dart of passion, desperate acts of the heartless. There’s a rumble from the depths, as truth seekers carry on. Even in discomfort persevering ‘till the dawn. And the shadow invites you in, and it isn’t all that’s nice. I have to look around, and not away while dissolving grips of vice...
Read MoreIt feels so good to have spent the last five days in studio sessions making extra ordinary sounds less ordinary! What can I say, the last several months have been quite unpleasant in nature. I can honestly say that dissolving an identity is fairly excruciating and less fun than you would think (lol). Although I am not in the clear, I am so grateful to be on this side of my recent transition from CEO to artist to…?
Read MoreThis question never goes out of style, especially during those longer plateaus of time and space where you actually think you know the answer. When was the last time you thought you knew? Who were you then? And where are they now? Does the you of 5 years ago still exist?
Read MoreIf you were on the precipice of real change, what would you sacrifice? And when I say real change, I mean from the inside of your bones kind of change. The change that ushers you into a new frontier of perspective because the old view no longer exists. People typically don’t like to change because it is deeply unpleasant. So you would have to want something greater than your own comfort for this to even be a valid inquiry. But what would happen if you could wipe the attachment from your own POV and truly give your full self in exchange to become different than you have ever been. Would you? What would you give?
For those of you who know me, you’ve probably seen that I pour myself into my creativity with fervor. Creative license is a way of being, a lifeline from the depths of internal churn which I have come to know as homeostasis. Maybe I am not typical, at least I aspire to find myself outside of the box. Change is something I lean into rather than avoid. And as I continue to form my devotion and alliance to this transformative and beastly state, I can’t help but advocate for the “everything is possible” that exists within the radical realm of metamorphosis…
I am a dreamer, I always have been. My dreams are a natural conduit for conversation with the more informed aspects of myself, those that are not distracted by the everyday and mundane tasks at hand. Lately, my dreams have felt more like visions rather than personal insights. Visions of a probable future and you may want to sit down for this…
Read MoreThere’s a secret doorway. And it opens from within. Am I ready to see all that it beholds? That Inner fire, it’s as swift as an arrow, when that higher love consumes me then I’ll know. Moving too fast. Living jet set. The cost was just too high. I’m ready to begin again. And now I rewrite myself with every end. Now I’m ready to begin again. And I’m going somewhere I have never been…
Read MoreJust going to start writing now. I don’t really even feel like it. Everywhere I look I see flames. Burning down where I have been, who I have been, and with whom I have been. Scary. Terrifying. Lonely. Sad. Touching in. Trying to find. The. Way. Home…
Oh it dares. It dares to be bold, to be grand, to be illuminating, and more fun than recent years for sure. Of course, there will be challenges, we are still in the roaring 2020’s after all…yet there is a sense of reprieve as we enter 2022 under the auspicious new moon in Capricorn in a heroic trine with cosmic lightning superstar Uranus. It is time to let our hair down and dance to the rhythm of our own drumbeat. Pretending is over, you are cordially invited to be YOURSELF…
In my heart for sure…thinking about everyone on this planet and beyond that I love so much that it hurts so good…You know what I mean? That love that can stretch beyond time and space, even past, present, and future. The love that tastes like the sweetest of honey or a bitter medicine that heals the deepest layers of self. The love that sparkles in the light, reflecting every facet of radiance and rainbows of glitter…
I had a dream recently like no other. I could see the horizon in front of me as a clean line of earth and sky. From deep within, I started to run at full speed towards this edge and just kept running as the edge became a cliff where the horizon quickly became sky into the ocean. All I could see was blue in all directions as I was suspended in a slow-motion mid-air flight and awakened…
After much tireless curiosity around this subject and meticulously investigating my true motivations and relationship to change, I can honestly say yes. And...it truly is the hardest, most arduous, and disciplined notion I believe a human can undergo. Changing a mind is not just making a new decision, it is diving deep into the crux of the origin of being…
Read MoreBecause your body can swim? Or for nighttime dreams? The way she looks at you...Or ridiculous memes? Or for, homecooked meals...The winds of change? Your favorite films...the bizarre and the strange? Because of high thread count sheets...And sweet body oils? Coyote songs under moonlight? Humus and fertile soils?