What Is Changing?
Astrologically, 2023 is poised as a revolutionary year with a spotlight on Pluto, Saturn, and Jupiter providing the scene for the micro and macro tectonic shifts that will carry us through into the rest of this decade. This is not about being comfortable. Although I am tempted to say something about how challenging and radical this moment is as an indicator of the sea change…it is hard to compare “these times” with all times throughout history because, let’s be honest, when has being human ever been easy? Whether dealing with predators, plagues, sanitation, natural disasters, wars, tyrants, and the most challenging of all, ourselves (our ego and the indications of said ego), there has always been an antagonist nipping at our heels…
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Where Art Thou Temperance?
When you are walking through Hell…keep going! Why does this thought make me laugh so hard? Because it is so obvious? Or maybe because when you know the temperature of the inner hell realms so intimately that just thinking of them sears your flesh, the only options are to laugh or cry. I don’t know but maybe there is something about the dichotomy of opposing forces that does bring us to the middle path. Pain and suffering on one end versus joy and laughter on the other. Perhaps somewhere in between is where the homeostasis of being resides, and from there, it is only human to taste the flavors of said emotional spectrum…
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Is There a Spirit of Vulnerability?
You know how people say...”In the spirit of _fill in the blank_?” In the spirit of Christmas, teamwork, frothy matcha with housemade almond milk, etc. Well, tonight I am reflecting on my moment and this rambunctious lunar eclipse befalling us and in the spirit of vulnerability, I would like to share some of mine with you. Deep sigh. Ok…it has been a very challenging couple of months for me. I feel that I’ve been consumed by a literal fire within my body that has truly challenged me on every level. Health is wealth, my Godfather always says, and it is true! And lately, I’ve been feeling a bit impoverished in this area while going through a compost phase of sorts…
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Are You Uncomfortable Enough?
Comfort is a curious thing. I’ve noticed just how eager I am to feel it, especially in times of distress or when I feel deeply uncomfortable due to whatever the circumstance, illness, challenge, etc happens to be. There is a register, almost an internal yearning for homeostasis, that seeks comfort as one would a soft blanket to melt into. However, when is it that true change of mind, thought, action, attitude, and beliefs, occur? Certainly not in a state of comfort…
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How Does Your Lava Flow?
As willing as one is to see, this new moon in Aries (a truly rare hybrid eclipse on all levels) will pierce the veils to the inner realms of knowing thy self. The question could be, how willing are you? In my bones, in the cells of the marrow of my bones, I am receiving a very deep invitation to change. And not just my mind about something in particular, or a habit, but to see myself as I have never before and in seeing what I cannot unsee, I am now tasked with a new responsibility to do something about it…
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Am I Healing?
I've been reflecting under this Libra full moon opposing Chiron (the wounded healer), as I've been enduring a very challenging moment of being human. I'm recognizing the fragility as well as the resilience of this incredible body and its capacity and willingness to be honest above and beyond my own self-deception. I’m learning that whatever it is that I’ve been avoiding, especially unconsciously, has created deep ravines and patterns that can be traced throughout my family lines in physical form. Typically we call them hereditary manifestations. Now that it’s my turn, I get to explore the true significance of what that means. Not just for me and my life and what it is that I have to change, but I’m learning about the consequences of individual and familial karma and how that plays out on the stage of the body…
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Will You Be Mine, AI?
Or not? Honestly, I am feeling very resistant, almost tantrum-esque in wanting to pause the AI takeover that is actually already happening. I guess I was that person who didn’t want a cell phone either and then kept a flip phone for as long as I possibly could. I still have never been on TikTok and loathe social media even though I am a part of its mayhem as a “user”…
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What Is a Birthday?
Time of birth is determined by the moment that the entire length of the body, from the head to the toes of the baby is outside of the mother’s body. This reminds me, at one point, each of us reading this right now spent many months inside another body (our mother) doing nothing other than coming into form as a human being. This is a radical reality that often lives outside my focused awareness somehow…
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How Can I Feel So Much Light in the Face of Death?
Caroline Kane…A woman of love, integrity, laughter, and compassion. Her energy, so full of light. As she passed in these recent days, I remind myself to focus on the new direction of her light, omni in presence and unlimited in scope. And inside my heart, her light radiates as a brilliant fire of pure gold…
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Who Are You Becoming?
I don’t know who you are becoming and I don’t know about me either. What I do know is that I can feel, see, witness, observe, notice, and experience myself changing in real-time! This could be a new experience for me. Now, these aren’t drastic changes, but they are incredibly profound ones. Changes that are textural, tangible, and axiomatic. In fact, I feel a new self emerging and I don’t yet know who she is…and, I am excited to meet her over time…
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Are New Moons for Planting?
A seed has been planted in my heart. It is a vision of beauty and bold materialization. It is nearly an impossible task that one such as myself could ever imagine successfully bringing to fruition. And yet, it is there, planted as a gift that is relentless in nudging me from within. What does it mean? Is it a metaphor? Is it a blueprint? Can it be both? I suppose time will tell but as I am already drawing up the plans in my mind's eye, I suppose I’ll have to surrender to seeing what I cannot unsee…
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What Is Your Perspective?
Perspective is King. I’ve heard this title given to cash, yet I believe that perspective takes the crown. We do live in a materialistic world where many seek to fill the inner voids of despair and loneliness with money and what money can buy. However, imagine if you were in that insatiable seeking mode of needing more and more and then suddenly had a perspective shift. One that reminded you of the actual necessities of life that reconfigured your priorities instantaneously…
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What Is Possible?
Somehow deep in my bones, I have unlimited access to eternal optimism. Maybe this is my true superpower or is this because I am an Enneagram 7, the Enthusiast? Or perhaps this is due to my unwavering faith? The faith that has come alive in me from direct experience of living the impossible into reality. What matters is that I remember everything is possible, even in the face of great challenges and obstacles, and to help my friends remember this too…
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What Is It Like to Wake Up in the Morning?
Maybe it is because I am waking up in one place now for the foreseeable future after a year of travel and spontaneous adventures. Perhaps it is because I adore my bed so much and the way my skin feels perfectly supported by my super soft sheets. Or maybe I’ve been thinking about morning routines and how they shape our days ahead. I think all three to be honest, and I am deeply curious as to how your morning looks on you…
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What Moves You?
I’m at the airport and boarding in 15 minutes on a one-way flight to New York City. The last week has been a whirlwind of change, literally dismantling a life I had created in Jackson, Wyoming to head to NY without a plan. Many of you have asked what inspired such a move. My answer: I am listening. I don’t know what is on the other side of this moment, who I will meet, or what I will “do”. I am clear that I am an artist and that I don’t want to starve, other than that, I am diving deep into the mystery unfolding from within and without…
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Home Is Where?
The heart is. Is that where my home is? Wherever my heart pulls, calls, nudges, or dares me to go? Right now I am surrounded by life in the uprooted form. My belongings are strewn about into piles of purge, sell, pack, and awaiting the inevitable…change. Have you ever heard that our home represents our mind and body? And that is why it can be helpful to clean the house when needing perspective. If what I see right now is my mind/body, I can only describe it as the elegance of upheaval. My color palette of the last 6 years is swathing my view, yet the serenity of what has been is no longer. There is no going back, I am (mind/body in the form of material possessions) soon being distributed amongst the valley I have always called home in some form or another…
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What Is a Karmic Echo?
We are cyclical in nature. Whether we feel it as we traverse life through seasons, or days and nights amidst the sun and the moon, or observe it within our very own bodies, hormones, emotions, and age. There are life cycles and there are death cycles, and there are cycles of karma that reverberate throughout time. Have you ever noticed how the anniversary of a birth, death, or perhaps a trauma holds a particular energy? Have you wondered why this is so?
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Up at 2 am?
Me too. This moon is so bold and bright that I’ve been sleepless for days. It isn’t just light either, it is the fire of transformation. There is no other way to spin this astrology but to recognize the intensity for what it is. Fire is both life-affirming and death-inducing. The paradox of this element and the aspects of this full moon are blazing within the individual psyche at a supercharged pace. Can you feel it?
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Certainty?
In moments of significant doubt, I attune to what feels certain. I am alive, I am breathing, I am here on earth. Life moves on, heartbeats keep beating, and somewhere in the wilderness of it all, there is a presence within me that is eternal. I lean in. This deeply intimate love caresses my soul in the most difficult of times and ruffles my skin in shivers when I hear the truth. There is a knowing, a powerful intimacy that resounds from within that I can fall into when all else appears to be lost...
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Ready for Deep?
By now, fearless reader, we know a few things about each other. You know about me based on what I share in these weekly journal entries and I know that you are willing to explore beyond what is commonly discussed in everyday conversation as you keep coming back for more. I appreciate that you do btw, and hope that sharing my inner investigations is in some way beneficial for you too. Truly, I feel this is why we are here; to help ourselves so we can help each other…
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