I’ve been sharing lately that I feel I am somewhere between 90 years old and 9 months of gestation. My body aches from the wrath of 2 weeks of schlepping boxes out of a home into a storage unit over to UPS and then up four flights of stairs. Somehow it isn’t over as I continue to decipher my future life and wade through belongings that have a semblance of meaning in all of this, I am just not sure what…
Read MoreI’m at the airport and boarding in 15 minutes on a one-way flight to New York City. The last week has been a whirlwind of change, literally dismantling a life I had created in Jackson, Wyoming to head to NY without a plan. Many of you have asked what inspired such a move. My answer: I am listening. I don’t know what is on the other side of this moment, who I will meet, or what I will “do”. I am clear that I am an artist and that I don’t want to starve, other than that, I am diving deep into the mystery unfolding from within and without…
Read MoreThe heart is. Is that where my home is? Wherever my heart pulls, calls, nudges, or dares me to go? Right now I am surrounded by life in the uprooted form. My belongings are strewn about into piles of purge, sell, pack, and awaiting the inevitable…change. Have you ever heard that our home represents our mind and body? And that is why it can be helpful to clean the house when needing perspective. If what I see right now is my mind/body, I can only describe it as the elegance of upheaval. My color palette of the last 6 years is swathing my view, yet the serenity of what has been is no longer. There is no going back, I am (mind/body in the form of material possessions) soon being distributed amongst the valley I have always called home in some form or another…
Read MoreWe are cyclical in nature. Whether we feel it as we traverse life through seasons, or days and nights amidst the sun and the moon, or observe it within our very own bodies, hormones, emotions, and age. There are life cycles and there are death cycles, and there are cycles of karma that reverberate throughout time. Have you ever noticed how the anniversary of a birth, death, or perhaps a trauma holds a particular energy? Have you wondered why this is so?
Read MoreMe too. This moon is so bold and bright that I’ve been sleepless for days. It isn’t just light either, it is the fire of transformation. There is no other way to spin this astrology but to recognize the intensity for what it is. Fire is both life-affirming and death-inducing. The paradox of this element and the aspects of this full moon are blazing within the individual psyche at a supercharged pace. Can you feel it?
Read MoreIn moments of significant doubt, I attune to what feels certain. I am alive, I am breathing, I am here on earth. Life moves on, heartbeats keep beating, and somewhere in the wilderness of it all, there is a presence within me that is eternal. I lean in. This deeply intimate love caresses my soul in the most difficult of times and ruffles my skin in shivers when I hear the truth. There is a knowing, a powerful intimacy that resounds from within that I can fall into when all else appears to be lost...
Read MoreIn the lucid realms that exist between a deep sleep state and an alert mind, there exists a treasure trove of communication with the unknown. This is the doorway into the magical, the real, and the truth serums that can alter your reality by seeing what you can no longer unsee. For those who dare to venture into the dreamland with a willingness to learn from the higher consciousness, rather than dismiss information received as solely a nightmare or otherwise, there are jewels of wisdom awaiting you…
Read MoreBy now, fearless reader, we know a few things about each other. You know about me based on what I share in these weekly journal entries and I know that you are willing to explore beyond what is commonly discussed in everyday conversation as you keep coming back for more. I appreciate that you do btw, and hope that sharing my inner investigations is in some way beneficial for you too. Truly, I feel this is why we are here; to help ourselves so we can help each other…
Read MoreThese stars are not messing around. Today we have a full moon in Capricorn, otherwise known as the Guru Purnima to some. Guru, in its pure meaning, is a sanskrit term that signifies the one who dispels darkness and engenders light. There is also a “heavy” connotation to the term in that the teacher sits with much earned wisdom and thus grounds truth in the form of teachings. On this day Buddhists celebrate the first sermon offered by Gautama Buddha at Sarnath, India. And with the current astrological aspects circling this week, I am sure we will each experience the weighted importance of this moon in some form or another…
Read MoreEvery day is an opportunity to breathe again. To receive the blessings of this miraculous life is to be present to the extraordinary that exists moment to moment. Some days are easier than others to feel the expansive reach of that which is greater calling our hearts into greatness. What day is it? It is your birthday in the sense of a perfect day to celebrate your precious and purposeful existence…
Read MoreToday is a New Moon in Cancer. While the moon is nestled at home in this sign, there is a heightened emotional frequency that cannot be avoided. Right now is about feelings. You have them, I have them and at times, as different as we are, we may be surfing similar feelings. In historic moments such as this one in the US, we can easily feel strongly about the issues at hand and their impact. It is also an excellent time to observe ourselves and our relationship to these emotions…
Read MoreRecently when discussing politics with a dear soul, I was inspired by a new vision of possibility for the future of this country. Current day: Walking amidst the minefield of the glitched-out matrix of blame and celebrated ego-identification, it has been hard for me to see where we can possibly go as a nation, much less, as humanity. But I am not giving up and truly there is nowhere to go even if someone were to want to. The samsaric wheel continues to spin, evolving and devolving as we go…
Read MoreYes, very! While it seems the headlines continue to bring in the intensity of the times, I can’t help but feel optimism from within my own skin. I can see there is a way forward through the density of the egotism and violence that consumes much of our society and, for me, it begins with self-responsibility. If I can show up fully with a clear mind and without blame, then I can change my world. And this is exactly what is needed right now, a new world…
Read MoreI pull myself up from the internal mud of my mind where I’ve been wrestling with myself for days. It was bound to happen. I could feel the gravitational slippage toward an unruly arena of self that has needed some attention. How long did I actually think I would be able to skip through life carrying this deadened weight around in my psyche as if it didn’t exist? Too long I suppose. So here I am, back to some intense heavy lifting that has me pining for the lighter days of life…
Read MoreIn the midst of global and national anguished intensity that only seems to be bubbling over by the day, some of us ask ourselves, “What can I do?” Whether your personal channel of attention is following Russia’s invasion of Ukraine, the recent mass shooting in Uvalde, Icelandic glaciers falling into the ocean, the Heard/Depp trial, or you are attempting to stay a social 6ft of distance from the headlines; the word is out, we can no longer avoid our responsibility of civic duty.…
Read MoreRemember when you drank the cup of forgetfulness? The memories they went disrupt, now I fight for them. Through life I have always sought the answers to why I’m here. What’s my purpose beyond my dreams and why should I even care? It’s the lightness that I seek, not the darkness that comes from me. Now I’m gaining the strength with every step. For what? That I cannot see…
Read MoreAnd I knew it was you, before we met. I was driving through the night towards an ancient duet. You could feel it too. You said you knew, while meditating, two atoms colliding. We came together, a vision was born. Because of the distance we were then torn. The karma crept in, it soon felt so hard. Yet we knew there was love deep in our hearts…
Read MoreWow! After months and months of feeling the gravitational pull into my personal dark night depths, I am truly excited to be looking up again. I don’t want to put too much into this moment, if there is anything I have learned of late, it is to not have strong attachments in any one direction or to assume the best or worst. So here I am, joyful beyond, content, and…curious…
Read MoreExactly. Good question. I found myself in tears many times over the past 24 hours. Tears of joy, tears of hope, tears of exhaustion…tears of letting go. I am simply amazed that in my current shedding process, there are more and more layers to release. I can’t even fathom who I am on the other side of this. It is both exciting and radical to contemplate…
Read MoreThank you. Thank you for your love. Thank you for caring. Thank you for knowing me. Thank you for your witness. Thank you for your patience. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for giving birth to me. Thank you for being here. Thank you for holding my hand. Thank you for letting me jump. Thank you for nourishing my heart. Thank you for your generous life. Thank you for teaching me. Thank you for being…
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