What is Your Relationship With the Masculine?
Q: What is your relationship with the masculine?
A: That is a big question…maybe a book in itself. Complicated? Honoring? Immense? Colorful? Daunting? A work in progress for sure. I have had my share of father issues to work through and they have clearly been exposed in all of my previous relationships…no hiding there. Thankfully I have a bit of an obsession with inner work and honestly, there is no shortage in this realm of my life. I am learning to love my Father, my inner Father, to know him, to curl up in His arms, to feel His eternal presence of love. That is my focus now, as truly, I haven’t created time in my current reality to dedicate my attention to nurturing a partnership outside of my work relationships.
And...if I did hear the call, it would find me in the midst of the deepest heart-wrenching, soul-extruding, and fiercely honest look into my ways of relating with men than I ever have previously. I am learning to respect my heart in powerful ways as I begin to see with new eyes, opening up to the idea of sharing life with a kind and genuine human being. I am learning that intimate relationships are not all built on suffering and that true love is possible.
As we transit through the re-membering of our archetypal journey of the marriage between our divine feminine and divine masculine, I honor the process we each face in order to do our part in this epic unfolding.
Happy New Moon in Gemini!
Q: What happened 8 years ago today?
A: Eight years ago, today, on my father’s birthday, I gave myself over to something unknown. My intuition, my better judgement and my discernment all went out the window for lack of a better term. I promised my soul to someone, to a hermetic institution, to a lie. It was one of those moments that once the line is crossed, there is hardly a thought to ever going back. In fact, there was no going back, only a very steep decline within my own spiritual progress. I will say that I learned a lot in the recreation of this mystical fall into my personal hell realms, yet I have learned so much more on the climb out of it, and victoriously to boot! I will leave this vague and elusive for now... they say that timing is everything.
