What Do You Regret?
Q: What Do You Regret?
A: If there is ever a time for this state of being, it is after not listening to my own intuition and inner guidance. I used to live with a very confident personal clause of ‘never having any regrets’. Yet upon further investigation, it simply wasn’t true. And in actuality, there are many more than I would prefer to admit.
Perhaps it is due to the reality that I am not as conscious as I would like to be. That much of my day is still under the influence of a waking sleep of which I have much less control over my own thoughts, emotions, actions, and words than I would hope. As I write this, I am truly curious...after decades of inner work and process, some years stronger than others for sure, just how much of my mind is still unconscious versus conscious?
Am I as diligent about my mind as I am my work responsibilities? How about my preferences or daily rituals? Do I care for my mind as much as I do about my loved ones?
On this Scorpio new moon, I question the state of my unconscious activity as I am invited to venture deeper into the lair of the underworld. I think of this new moon as an eve of reckoning, of taking inventory of my inner process for the year in retrospect. Where have I made progress? And what am I avoiding still?
On the astrological note, it bodes well to mention that this new moon indicates an electrical escapade as Uranus is in direct opposition to it, which may prove to challenge each and every one of us to some degree. In other words, there is no escape route, the only way through the depths is through and it will be an unpredictably wild lightning-laced adventure to boot.
Fortunately, as a deep diver who thrives on some level of excruciating metamorphosis on a daily, I welcome certain levels of pain that bare the fruit of wisdom once lived and processed accordingly. However, it is only useful if I can learn from my errors and thus bringing me back to the notion of regret.
Do I regret the pain I have caused myself and others due to my unconscious habits, words, and tendencies? Absolutely, I do. I am not a masochist and do not wish this upon anyone. And yet, can I transmute this negativity into something beneficial? Yes, that I can also do. To take the trauma, pain, guilt, and shame as fodder for a deeply powerful new possibility of life is what I have come to see as somewhat of a talent. For better or for worse, getting into what we would rather not see and bringing it to light does offer a virtue of plentitude.
Joan of Sparc was created out of the darkness of my own inner process of dying to an old self, an outdated way of being. Our tagline to ‘Bring Your Inner World to Life’ means that we have to look starkly at what is there, recognize our regrets if you will, and then through a process of inner work, transform ourselves from the inside out, illuminating the treasures of our heart and sharing them with the world.
What do you think about that?
