What Is Inner Knowing?
TREASURES FROM WITHIN
Q: What Is Inner Knowing?
A: Though the recent months have been quite challenging for me as I traverse the dark forest of my psyche, I am in complete awe of what can be found within the unconscious realms in the form of actual treasure. Perhaps I will come through my Pluto transits in the next few years with an aching nostalgia for these current days of tumult. Why? Because in the fiery and blazing forge of my internal sphere of being, an inner knowing so crystalline clear is beginning to reveal itself to me for the first time. From here forward, only memories shall exist to remind me of the moment I witnessed the crowning of a new birth.
The paradox is real. The internal invitation for me is to uncoil the entanglement of the constructs of my mind that I have created to survive until now. It continues with the unraveling of who I have known myself to be and to navigate this with as much grace as I can muster while attending to my external life responsibilities. It feels messy, “uncontrolled and undone” (lyrics from my recent single Midnight). Thank God for the music pouring through me at this time too, what a lifeline of light and creative lifeforce.
MEDITATION & CLARITY
I’ve had the good fortune of deep meditation in recent days. This is a true gift as quite honestly when swimming through tsunami size waves on the inner planes, my meditation practice has had to adapt to the sheer force of the relentless pounding and dismantling of self. At my seat, my prayers are answered. The clarity that I have sought for my whole life is streaming through me and I recognize, this isn’t just happening, I have been (inner) working for this for as long as I can remember.
Moments such as this are precious and rare. I am embracing the reprieve as I inhale a deep breath on the crest of this wave and let the sun shine on my face before the next inevitable deep dive into the trough, or the next underworld excursion to see more of what I have been avoiding and ignoring. What I am learning is that inner knowing is the direct result of my effort to know myself. For whatever reason, insights are hard-won for me and there is presence, duty, and diligence underneath each aha moment of my personal realization.
LIFE IS A CHOICE
There may never be an end to this inner knowing and in this I celebrate. As an inner explorer, the allure of the consistent unveiling of internal wisdom is a fountain from which I hope to drink from into eternity. Nothing comes without a cost and I am only allowed to drink the nectar from this spring when I have rescued myself from the grips of sadistic thirst. What does this mean? It means that I am truly the one who is both starving myself and keeping myself from the eternal spring of life when I choose my ego over my essence. To be or not to be, remember? Life is a choice. Every moment, the same choice, dressed up in different clothes.
Deep sigh over here as I write in the glorious light of morning and with immense gratitude. The unfolding of me is writing itself and for some reason from within, I feel compelled to share glimpses of it with you. May your day be bright and inspired. May you feel solidarity on the journey. May you observe yourself amidst the choices presented to you every moment of your sacred life.
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