By now, fearless reader, we know a few things about each other. You know about me based on what I share in these weekly journal entries and I know that you are willing to explore beyond what is commonly discussed in everyday conversation as you keep coming back for more. I appreciate that you do btw, and hope that sharing my inner investigations is in some way beneficial for you too. Truly, I feel this is why we are here; to help ourselves so we can help each other…
Read MoreThese stars are not messing around. Today we have a full moon in Capricorn, otherwise known as the Guru Purnima to some. Guru, in its pure meaning, is a sanskrit term that signifies the one who dispels darkness and engenders light. There is also a “heavy” connotation to the term in that the teacher sits with much earned wisdom and thus grounds truth in the form of teachings. On this day Buddhists celebrate the first sermon offered by Gautama Buddha at Sarnath, India. And with the current astrological aspects circling this week, I am sure we will each experience the weighted importance of this moon in some form or another…
Read MoreEvery day is an opportunity to breathe again. To receive the blessings of this miraculous life is to be present to the extraordinary that exists moment to moment. Some days are easier than others to feel the expansive reach of that which is greater calling our hearts into greatness. What day is it? It is your birthday in the sense of a perfect day to celebrate your precious and purposeful existence…
Read MoreToday is a New Moon in Cancer. While the moon is nestled at home in this sign, there is a heightened emotional frequency that cannot be avoided. Right now is about feelings. You have them, I have them and at times, as different as we are, we may be surfing similar feelings. In historic moments such as this one in the US, we can easily feel strongly about the issues at hand and their impact. It is also an excellent time to observe ourselves and our relationship to these emotions…
Read MoreRecently when discussing politics with a dear soul, I was inspired by a new vision of possibility for the future of this country. Current day: Walking amidst the minefield of the glitched-out matrix of blame and celebrated ego-identification, it has been hard for me to see where we can possibly go as a nation, much less, as humanity. But I am not giving up and truly there is nowhere to go even if someone were to want to. The samsaric wheel continues to spin, evolving and devolving as we go…
Read MoreYes, very! While it seems the headlines continue to bring in the intensity of the times, I can’t help but feel optimism from within my own skin. I can see there is a way forward through the density of the egotism and violence that consumes much of our society and, for me, it begins with self-responsibility. If I can show up fully with a clear mind and without blame, then I can change my world. And this is exactly what is needed right now, a new world…
Read MoreI pull myself up from the internal mud of my mind where I’ve been wrestling with myself for days. It was bound to happen. I could feel the gravitational slippage toward an unruly arena of self that has needed some attention. How long did I actually think I would be able to skip through life carrying this deadened weight around in my psyche as if it didn’t exist? Too long I suppose. So here I am, back to some intense heavy lifting that has me pining for the lighter days of life…
Read MoreFor me, it isn’t so much about what I think, it’s about what I do with those thoughts. Do I believe them? Follow their every whim across a spectrum of belittlement to grandiosity? Through my personal excavation of thought, many different thinkers are vying to shout into the microphone of my inner ear. Haven’t I learned already that having free will is a crucial component to liberating myself from these internal grade school theatrics? Maybe not if I haven’t been humbled enough to offer my free will as a gift to the only one who deserves it…
Read MoreMama,
Thank you for who you are. For your grace and tenacity, your smile and your light. Your insatiable study of life and the power within it. For your courage to give birth to your daughters, offering yourself to give us possibility…the possibility to become our true selves. You’ve seen everything and your psychic knowing has always revealed deeper truths shared in the contemplative conversations we’ve explored in these years. I thank you for seeing me, for witnessing the highs and the lows, and for getting in the trenches too. It has not been boring😊…
Read MoreNervous system, relaxed. Excellent nights of sleep, check. A profound sense of belonging to a “place”, yes. Inspired? that too. Biofeedback feels good on all levels. Sense of the unpredictable?...yes. I wonder what will be?
Read MoreAs a young maiden, so innocent and pure, I dance through the fields, while the gods feel allure. While the gods feel…Musing with all the creatures and plants, I fall for narcissus, the darkness so vast, so vast. Riding bareback through the forests, sunlight kisses my skin. Between shadows of the leaves, Hades sets out to win. And my light is a flame that begins to grow dim…
Read MoreRemember when you drank the cup of forgetfulness? The memories they went disrupt, now I fight for them. Through life I have always sought the answers to why I’m here. What’s my purpose beyond my dreams and why should I even care? It’s the lightness that I seek, not the darkness that comes from me. Now I’m gaining the strength with every step. For what? That I cannot see…
Read MoreFrom the silken midnight waters, to the fire within the darkness. And a poisonous dart of passion, desperate acts of the heartless. There’s a rumble from the depths, as truth seekers carry on. Even in discomfort persevering ‘till the dawn. And the shadow invites you in, and it isn’t all that’s nice. I have to look around, and not away while dissolving grips of vice...
Read MoreAnd I knew it was you, before we met. I was driving through the night towards an ancient duet. You could feel it too. You said you knew, while meditating, two atoms colliding. We came together, a vision was born. Because of the distance we were then torn. The karma crept in, it soon felt so hard. Yet we knew there was love deep in our hearts…
Read MoreWow! After months and months of feeling the gravitational pull into my personal dark night depths, I am truly excited to be looking up again. I don’t want to put too much into this moment, if there is anything I have learned of late, it is to not have strong attachments in any one direction or to assume the best or worst. So here I am, joyful beyond, content, and…curious…
Read MoreExactly. Good question. I found myself in tears many times over the past 24 hours. Tears of joy, tears of hope, tears of exhaustion…tears of letting go. I am simply amazed that in my current shedding process, there are more and more layers to release. I can’t even fathom who I am on the other side of this. It is both exciting and radical to contemplate…
Read MoreThank you. Thank you for your love. Thank you for caring. Thank you for knowing me. Thank you for your witness. Thank you for your patience. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for giving birth to me. Thank you for being here. Thank you for holding my hand. Thank you for letting me jump. Thank you for nourishing my heart. Thank you for your generous life. Thank you for teaching me. Thank you for being…
Read MoreI can tell you my truth. Clearly, there is a spectrum of truth from subjective to objective as well as a sphere of truth from the relative to the eternal…I am in awe of the malleability of what it means to be human. I feel as if a landscape in motion. One of volcanoes containing molten lava that erupt into a body of new earth on the hour. I feel stormy seas and torrential rains of tears and emotions swish me from skin to puddles in a moment's notice. I remember my breath and the song that runs as vital oxygen through my blood as I sing into an unfamiliar existence…
Read MoreThe Star of Hope, the 17th card of the tarot has always blessed my personal journey, winking at me from time to time. It brings with it a message of reprieve, the turning of the tides from the desperate walk through the dark night. There, amidst the blackness of midnight, is a brilliant star shining its cosmic radiance and touching my naked human eye. The sparkle immediately reminds me that everything is possible, and that regardless of the challenges of the moment, there is a beyond that beckons with power…
Read MoreIt feels so good to have spent the last five days in studio sessions making extra ordinary sounds less ordinary! What can I say, the last several months have been quite unpleasant in nature. I can honestly say that dissolving an identity is fairly excruciating and less fun than you would think (lol). Although I am not in the clear, I am so grateful to be on this side of my recent transition from CEO to artist to…?
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