In the midst of global and national anguished intensity that only seems to be bubbling over by the day, some of us ask ourselves, “What can I do?” Whether your personal channel of attention is following Russia’s invasion of Ukraine, the recent mass shooting in Uvalde, Icelandic glaciers falling into the ocean, the Heard/Depp trial, or you are attempting to stay a social 6ft of distance from the headlines; the word is out, we can no longer avoid our responsibility of civic duty.…
Read MoreMe too. The past week has felt molasses-like in nature, luring me into witnessing unconscious territory brought to the surface by the recent eclipse season. It hasn’t been pretty, and definitely not easy. Tired isn’t even the word for it, I have felt exhaustion run through me. Resistance is a decent word for it although it isn’t only that. It feels to me that there is a deeper invitation to actually change my behavior and way of being in the world. Am I up for it? I would like to say yes…knowing it will require some heavy lifting…
Read MoreFor me, it isn’t so much about what I think, it’s about what I do with those thoughts. Do I believe them? Follow their every whim across a spectrum of belittlement to grandiosity? Through my personal excavation of thought, many different thinkers are vying to shout into the microphone of my inner ear. Haven’t I learned already that having free will is a crucial component to liberating myself from these internal grade school theatrics? Maybe not if I haven’t been humbled enough to offer my free will as a gift to the only one who deserves it…
Read MoreMama,
Thank you for who you are. For your grace and tenacity, your smile and your light. Your insatiable study of life and the power within it. For your courage to give birth to your daughters, offering yourself to give us possibility…the possibility to become our true selves. You’ve seen everything and your psychic knowing has always revealed deeper truths shared in the contemplative conversations we’ve explored in these years. I thank you for seeing me, for witnessing the highs and the lows, and for getting in the trenches too. It has not been boring😊…
Read MoreNervous system, relaxed. Excellent nights of sleep, check. A profound sense of belonging to a “place”, yes. Inspired? that too. Biofeedback feels good on all levels. Sense of the unpredictable?...yes. I wonder what will be?
Read MoreAs a young maiden, so innocent and pure, I dance through the fields, while the gods feel allure. While the gods feel…Musing with all the creatures and plants, I fall for narcissus, the darkness so vast, so vast. Riding bareback through the forests, sunlight kisses my skin. Between shadows of the leaves, Hades sets out to win. And my light is a flame that begins to grow dim…
Read MoreRemember when you drank the cup of forgetfulness? The memories they went disrupt, now I fight for them. Through life I have always sought the answers to why I’m here. What’s my purpose beyond my dreams and why should I even care? It’s the lightness that I seek, not the darkness that comes from me. Now I’m gaining the strength with every step. For what? That I cannot see…
Read MoreFrom the silken midnight waters, to the fire within the darkness. And a poisonous dart of passion, desperate acts of the heartless. There’s a rumble from the depths, as truth seekers carry on. Even in discomfort persevering ‘till the dawn. And the shadow invites you in, and it isn’t all that’s nice. I have to look around, and not away while dissolving grips of vice...
Read MoreAnd I knew it was you, before we met. I was driving through the night towards an ancient duet. You could feel it too. You said you knew, while meditating, two atoms colliding. We came together, a vision was born. Because of the distance we were then torn. The karma crept in, it soon felt so hard. Yet we knew there was love deep in our hearts…
Read MoreWow! After months and months of feeling the gravitational pull into my personal dark night depths, I am truly excited to be looking up again. I don’t want to put too much into this moment, if there is anything I have learned of late, it is to not have strong attachments in any one direction or to assume the best or worst. So here I am, joyful beyond, content, and…curious…
Read MoreExactly. Good question. I found myself in tears many times over the past 24 hours. Tears of joy, tears of hope, tears of exhaustion…tears of letting go. I am simply amazed that in my current shedding process, there are more and more layers to release. I can’t even fathom who I am on the other side of this. It is both exciting and radical to contemplate…
Read MoreThank you. Thank you for your love. Thank you for caring. Thank you for knowing me. Thank you for your witness. Thank you for your patience. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for giving birth to me. Thank you for being here. Thank you for holding my hand. Thank you for letting me jump. Thank you for nourishing my heart. Thank you for your generous life. Thank you for teaching me. Thank you for being…
Read MoreI can tell you my truth. Clearly, there is a spectrum of truth from subjective to objective as well as a sphere of truth from the relative to the eternal…I am in awe of the malleability of what it means to be human. I feel as if a landscape in motion. One of volcanoes containing molten lava that erupt into a body of new earth on the hour. I feel stormy seas and torrential rains of tears and emotions swish me from skin to puddles in a moment's notice. I remember my breath and the song that runs as vital oxygen through my blood as I sing into an unfamiliar existence…
Read MoreThe Star of Hope, the 17th card of the tarot has always blessed my personal journey, winking at me from time to time. It brings with it a message of reprieve, the turning of the tides from the desperate walk through the dark night. There, amidst the blackness of midnight, is a brilliant star shining its cosmic radiance and touching my naked human eye. The sparkle immediately reminds me that everything is possible, and that regardless of the challenges of the moment, there is a beyond that beckons with power…
Read MoreIt feels so good to have spent the last five days in studio sessions making extra ordinary sounds less ordinary! What can I say, the last several months have been quite unpleasant in nature. I can honestly say that dissolving an identity is fairly excruciating and less fun than you would think (lol). Although I am not in the clear, I am so grateful to be on this side of my recent transition from CEO to artist to…?
Read MoreThis question never goes out of style, especially during those longer plateaus of time and space where you actually think you know the answer. When was the last time you thought you knew? Who were you then? And where are they now? Does the you of 5 years ago still exist?
Read MoreIf you were on the precipice of real change, what would you sacrifice? And when I say real change, I mean from the inside of your bones kind of change. The change that ushers you into a new frontier of perspective because the old view no longer exists. People typically don’t like to change because it is deeply unpleasant. So you would have to want something greater than your own comfort for this to even be a valid inquiry. But what would happen if you could wipe the attachment from your own POV and truly give your full self in exchange to become different than you have ever been. Would you? What would you give?
For those of you who know me, you’ve probably seen that I pour myself into my creativity with fervor. Creative license is a way of being, a lifeline from the depths of internal churn which I have come to know as homeostasis. Maybe I am not typical, at least I aspire to find myself outside of the box. Change is something I lean into rather than avoid. And as I continue to form my devotion and alliance to this transformative and beastly state, I can’t help but advocate for the “everything is possible” that exists within the radical realm of metamorphosis…
Hello world. How art these days for thee? While riding high on the dragons of the mind, how doest one relate? I continueth to traverse the unexplored terrain of mine soul, as usual. And 't doest not feeleth boring. However, I findeth myself aching to ooze these words through the sieve of Shakespeare's English only for dramatic flair. Is't working?
I do. I am in a state of acceptance like no other I have ever known. I am accepting the transition of this moment…as a friend noted, “it seems you’re able to spend time in between the letting go of one trapeze and enjoy it without frantically searching for the next one”. Indeed, it feels that way. And enjoyment is a relative term in this case. Let’s explore the space in between the next trapeze through inquiry…
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